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Ayesha You're ok - not 'bad' ;)
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anthony - yes, the misdiagnosis did a lot of harm to me - I was instantly 'labelled' and the 'treatment' for BPD 20 years ago was simply to not treat - no meds (for depression), no 'attention' (i.e. - telling your care provider's you were suicidal was simply seen as 'attention seeking' and you would be ignored for fear of 'encouraging it'), and thought of as 'very manipulative' and 'lying'. I am not kidding - on the times I felt incredibly depressed, suicidal thoughts and feelings and telephoned for help, the response I was given was "well, what do you expect us to do about it?! If you want to take your life, that's up to you, we aren't going to try to stop you!".
I'ms sure many of you can imagine how awful that would be, and how damaging it was, to be treated that way - no health professional would (you'd hope) dream of actively ignoring or dismissing suicidality or depression in someone diagnosed with PTSD.
Ironically, the very first psychiatrist 'treating' me who did not believe anti-depressants would be of any good for me at all (and refused to trial me on some) killed himself less than two weeks later.
I was part of the problem in my misdiagnosis, because I wasn't able to articulate what was happening for me - I knew I dissociated, but I did not now the 'other strange things' happening to me were flashbacks. The flashbacks I was having back then were not strongly related to one particular, clear incident - much more subtle than 'vivid memories' of a particular trauma, and even today, knowing what they are, it is very difficult to articulate a lot of the time. But that they did not even consider PTSD as a possible diagnose beggars belief - I multiple events that happened to me that could be considered traumatic - perhaps the biggest 'clue' being I had walked into the room and witnessed the sudden, fatal heart attack of my mother when I was aged 10.
I agree Anthony about the targeting of women and how some experiences might be different - that is the key issue behind misdiagnosing women with PTSD as having a personal disorder. WHen I was told I had BPD, men with the same or similar issues would never be diagnosed with BPD - they would often be told they had schitzo-affective disorder, bi polar, or antisocial personality disorder. I guess why 'CPTSD' is seemingly targeted towards women, is due to it being women who have predominantly been misdiagnosed as having a personality disorder when in actual fact, they have PTSD. (some of course might have both, but I really do believe most women with PTSD who have been told they also have BPD, do NOT actually have a 'personality disorder'). Basicvally, I think its over-diagnosed (BPD) and in most cases, CPTSD is a better fit (yes, I know, it doesn't exist as a diagnosis).
IF CPTSD had been in the DSM 20 years ago, I think that is the diagnosis the Drs would have come up with for me. Would it have changed how I was treated? Absolutely! Why wasn't I diagnosed with PTSD then? Because they didn't recognize in me, the symptoms of it, as I presented - and because I was not able to articulate what it was that was happening to me at the time.