Stopping Suicidal Actions While Dissociated?

[shimmerz]

Maybe it's time to start some research on more intensive programs, and then decide from there.

And that is the thing that empowers us. Choices. Making our own choices as to how we will be helped.

It isn't a failure to go into a program. Back in the day I begged to get into programs, and in Toronto at the time they were closing facilities all over the place. So I ended up, against my will, or because people couldn't deal with my symptomology and took me in, and I landed in hospitals. And regular hospital staff didn't understand what they were doing. What was happening to me. So I was abused. Badly. Several times.

I think your plan to research is a really good one Shadow. Keep us informed, reach out while you research so you aren't alone in it. Connection with people who 'get it' is so very important. :hug:. Brave. This is very brave. You are very brave.

 

[Casper1018]

So sorry you are struggling. I take Naltrexone 50 mg for dissociation and it has been a godsend. I used to have very similar and worse, symptoms. Maybe your prescriber would be willing to try you on it to see if it helps.

 

[theshadowoftheliving]

Brave. This is very brave. You are very brave.

Thank you. I'm trying to hold it together long enough to be able to do the research and maybe get myself into a place that is decent, rather than being committed to whatever is the nearest place my insurance will pay for. There are so many layers, starting with finances to pay for my insurance/the possibility of switching to a new insurance plan ... and then figuring out what they cover, how to do a referral, etc. I'm so so so overwhelmed, and the depression and hopelessness makes it hard to try to figure this stuff out.

So sorry you are struggling. I take Naltrexone 50 mg for dissociation and it has been a godsend. I used to have very similar and worse, symptoms. Maybe your prescriber would be willing to try you on it to see if it helps.

I'm a little afraid to try this. As scary as the dissociation can be, I'm also afraid that I would just freak out and kill myself over the emotions, too, because I do such a piss-poor job at regulating myself. I'm working on it. Everyday. But to give it up completely might be just as problematic, albeit in a different manner....

 

[crazyhorse69]

Try to go horse back riding, get into the mountains, break out of your daily cycle and routine that's smothering you, write things out, go to the beach if it's close by,