I Need Help....:(

[Deleted member 32731]

I understand this completely. I was bullied a ton when I was a kid. Regardless of what you did or did...

Yeah, it's horrible because everyone expects me to be like the others and throw a fight. Well, that's not how I prefer to handle things. Maybe I'm just weird, idk. It's not just that they target people who show fear and, well, I have trouble not showing it when I'm freaking out (literally) and just not knowing anything else except "i'm too scared to be here".

 

[EveHarrington]

Unfortunately, as neverthesame has stated, many bullies don't stop until you stand up to them. I know that fighting isn't your style, but there is no reasoning with a bully. They only "speak" in physical violence.

 

[Deleted member 32731]

Unfortunately, as neverthesame has stated, many bullies don't stop until you stand up to them. I k...

Well if I do by chance hit someone then they're just going to spread it around to a ton of people, even in different schools--
"Hey this girl wants to fight!"
"Oh she's talking s**t on you, go up and hit her!"
No.
These girls are so obnoxious. There's no way to stop anything they are way too immature.

 

[EveHarrington]

Can you transfer schools? Do home schooling via computer?

 

[Deleted member 32731]

Can you transfer schools? Do home schooling via computer?

My parents are transferring me to cyberschool but I have to wait til next week and I have no idea how I'll make it through these last few days. Drives many anxiety attacks and behavioral problems-then I'm in trouble like usual lol

 

[EveHarrington]

That's awesome news! I don't advocate running away from issues, but in your case it's quite warranted as these people were threatening you and physically harming you. Sometimes the only solution is to remove yourself from the situation.

Once you're away from the constant threat of violence, your system will start to calm down I hope! It may not be immediate, but I think you'll notice a difference within a few weeks. It will also be easier to work on your anxiety symptoms. Are you seeing a therapist?

 

[Deleted member 32731]

That's awesome news! I don't advocate running away from issues, but in your case it's quite warran...

I can't see a therapist. The one I was seeing was booked, and I don't want to ask my parents to look into another one because I want to seem strong and I don't want to admit I may have a problem....

 

[shimmerz]

because I want to seem strong and I don't want to admit I may have a problem....

You are strong..... and everyone has problems. :hug:

 

[EveHarrington]

I hope you can ask for a new therapist. Anxiety issues like this tend not to resolve on your own.

The strength lies in reaching out for help.

 

[Deleted member 32731]

You are strong..... and everyone has problems. :hug:

It's just so hard for me to think, "Maybe I'm not invincible"..:(

 

[Deleted member 32731]

I hope you can ask for a new therapist. Anxiety issues like this tend not to resolve on your own....

I wish they could go away on their own.....
I can try but I'm so scared of admitting anything:/(

 

[shimmerz]

I wish they could go away on their own.....
I can try but I'm so scared of admitting anything:/(

Dearest Emotional. There is no shame in being scared or of admitting that one is not invincible. I so wish I had had your level of awareness at the age that you are. It may seem awful to you, but the fact that you realize that you have anxiety is such a blessing. It gives you a lot of time to work on it. If your parents are negating what is happening, I can see that it would be extremely difficult to not deny this to yourself as well.

You are no lesser a person if you need help learning how to protect yourself in a way that has people not target you. I hope that one day you will find peace in knowing that many a strong person has fallen to less and that there is help out there for you.
Much love
Much light
Shimmerz