Wulp It Went Thru

[sonicwhite]

so I ordered something in the mail on the 18th of February and when I thought it wasn't coming I started to just accept that maybe God is trying to tell me something. So I started talking to God more. I was happy that nothing was showing up on tacking and was content that I may be hearing Gods still gentle voice again. Than on the sixth I get an email saying it is in NYC. I wasn't happy at all. Pretty discouraged and I told God that I didn't want to be tempted more than I can handle. This will most def be the last time I order EPH. It helps me be motivated but in the long run just causes addiction. So I'm telling my fellow PTSDR's about this cuz it's on my chest. Still over three months clean of meth. Still going strong.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

EPH = ephedrine? Not sure where you ordered it (not that Id want you to broadcast it)...just being a 'techie' I know the Silk Road AND Silk Road 2.0 was both closed off the deep web.

Not sure Id order drugs or send drugs via US mail of any kind and if its in NYC then possible from over seas...might wanna be careful, they opened flea medician for my dog bought w/ heartworm meds from an Austrailian site cuz they dont require the dog to be heartworm tested & buying from a vet...its cheaper.

Congrats on being clean by the way! :tup:

 

[sonicwhite]

Ethylphenidate. Even tho I haven't done regeants testing I'm sure it is what it is. Yes overseas. I was trying to just give a vague detail of what but yes it concerns me more and more these days. And I just wished I had the strength to say no.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Drugs are strong demons. My ex roommate and good friend just passed away about 5 days ago from a herion overdose.

I have got myself clean off coke & crack, huffing duster, & smoking cigs...but im also very strong willed when i want something bad enough. Sorta good currently as now my 'programming' is starting to pissing me off and i sorta have to get fed up & pissed before i push myself to that place called change.

Careful moving thru JFK; everything from over seas is ex rayed and they catch more than you think. Watch "To Catch A Smuggler" on Netflix. I bet that will make you clean quick...

Good job though for real, I know how hard it is. From one clean addict to another!

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Oh also, DEA will do 'set up' deliveries...and arrest you once you accept it so please be careful if its not to you yet!

 

[sonicwhite]

Ok, will do. I'm heeding the warning.

 

[joeylittle]

Pick up the package, walk a couple of blocks, drop the unopened package in a dumpster, the garbage, wherever. Just toss it. Don't even think about it. You had already accepted that it wasn't coming - just stay connected to that thought.

 

[Fadeaway]

You are only 3 months clean, your brain is not yet producing the chemicals it needs nor the receptors, that your brain stopped producing as a result of the meth. A drug like this will only slow down the healing process.

You messed up your brains chemistry and now you need to give it time to sort it's self out. The best way to do this is to eat healthy and exercise. Take nutritional supplements if you need too. And when I say nutritional supplements, I am talking about vitamins, minerals and amino acids. Not a meth like chemical and certainly not one you ordered off the internet. Go to a reputable health food store and speak with a nutritionist.

 

[Ronin]

Just toss it. Don't even think about it. You had already accepted that it wasn't coming - just stay connected to that thought.

All of this.

Sonic, all the drugs are demons and f*cking yo up and f*cking up how you're with God, okay? You can't hear the love if you give in to any of them. It isn't just meth, it's everything. Just toss it man.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

If its not to you yet, I would refuse the package for 2 reasons, obviously you want to stay clean and refusing it gives you no temptation since you arent holding it & if ICE is doing a 'control delivery' then you dont have a chance of getting arrested. "Nope, I didnt order that". ;)

 

[Neverthesame]

Just parroting what has already been said. Don't bother collecting them.

You want to prove to yourself how strong you have become against this dæmon that is addiction?

Here is your opportunity. You don't need to prove it to anyone else, God already knows what you're going to do. But to show yourself that you are able to stay clean is so important.

Don't forget, temptation is normal. It's it we choose to do in the face of temptation that is good or bad.

One more thing, every time you say no to this, it gets easier. That feeling of wanting to drink it, smoke it, swallow it or shoot it becomes less. That anxious unpleasant feeling that comes immediately after saying "no", becomes less. It stops feeling like a huge mistake when you don't use, it begins to feel as it should, it feels like pride.

 

[shimmerz]

So very sorry sonic and all involved in this thread. Thought I was posting in my diary. Apparently it has been a rough day. Not seeing straight. Please forgive me. I have reported to admin and requested that they move these posts.