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Boundaries, Communication, And My Own Desperation

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He sought you out and made you feel wanted and fulfilled....he filled a void that was disrupted by your adoptive brother(who hurt you)....and many others...

Simon, you are wanted, loved and deserve people in your life that CAN fill that void...the ones that were taken from you! But this guy, biologically related or not....he has no interest in you or YOUR BEST INTEREST.....

Cons and leaches have no issues going to great lengths to get their needs met.....

I'm deeply sorry...

But you have a rock star of a therapist who must really love and care about you! Like a real person, in a real relationship would. You are clearly worth more than you think...
 
I have learned that his perspective socially/interpersonally is completely alien from my own,

I'm sorry this is happening to you. If your brother and you are that incompatible in your perspectives and personalities, it does sound grim for resolution. If he were not related to you, but perhaps an aquaintance that you tried to help, how would you be able to react to what you realize now? Would you be more assertive?

I've been in a similar situation, and it took me inordinately long to actually face the fact that I was being manipulated by a parasite. You've been very generous, and it doesn't seem now to have been a good choice. Perhaps if some of your other siblings know him, they might have suggestions for how to handle the situation. But I think your T may be right that, for your own well-being, you end this arrangement. It may only get worse, especially if he hooks up with another girlfriend before he finds a job.

Just my experience talking. Good luck. The shorter you make this difficulty, the easier it will be to live with later. Like pulling a painful tooth?
 
Well... quoth Sondheim:

"And it came to pass that all that seemed wrong was now right, the kingdoms were filled with joy, and those who deserved to were certain to live a long and happy life, ever after."

Simon really don't play, so Simon immediately set about research into how to fix her issues on Wednesday. By yesterday, my valuables had been evacuated from my house, my landlord had been roughly informed of the situation, and my brother was issued an edict to leave. I used @Ragdoll Circus's line. Worked like a charm. The only extra thing I added, after many text message diatribes, was, "I have nothing to say to you. You need to leave."

My brother, for his part, was hard at work attempting to gain sympathy or resources from my friends, which got him nowhere. He insisted both of me and friends that he needed a ride. My best friend, kind and compassionate person that she is, was even starting to feel a little soft, asking me how I expected him to get back to his town if he didn't have anyone to give him a ride. I told her I didn't believe for a second that he couldn't con someone into getting him, and I was right. Sometime between 7pm last night and 9:30am this morning he had vanished.

So far, I can't ascertain that he's stolen anything, although there wasn't a whole lot left to steal. I think he may have taken my minispeaker ($10 Walgreens) and possibly a handcrafted shillelagh (less irreplaceable than it might sound). Aside from appliances and a very old, small television, anything with any value in that place would have been unrecognizable to him as valuable (designer clothes, rare and signed books).

This was a somewhat expensive mistake, although not all that expensive in the long run, and I actually feel really good. I think taking control of the situation sort of... made me feel empowered? Maybe? I'm not really sure what it is, but I'm in excellent sprits for now.

This experience also taught me a lot about myself, my trauma, my grief, the nature of my confusion about my identity, and other aspects of my emotional/spiritual (if you will) life that were unexpected and unforeseen. I suspect emotional fallout may result from this in the near future, but for now, I'm just trying to process it all at the pace I can handle, and I'm basking in the positive stuff.

All in all, there's a part of me that feels like what I've gained in experience and self-knowledge (not to mention a deep understanding of the lengths my friends will go to for my very best interests) has cost me radically less than the amount of therapy I would need to arrive at a similar place.

I can't tell you what the support here has meant for me in this situation. I don't often posts threads anymore, and when I asked for this community's help, I was really floored by how many were willing to spend their time and energy advising and supporting me.

Edited to add: my last post was strange because a) I wasn't sure if he would seek me out here in an effort to communicate/investigate when I was not speaking to him at all and b) I wasn't sure if this would become a legal issue that would be ill suited for public online discussion.

:)

"And I know things now
Very valuable things
That I hadn't known before
Do not put your faith
In a cape and a hood
They will not protect you
The way that they should
And take extra care with strangers
Even flowers have their dangers
And though scary is exciting,
Nice is different than good
Now I know, don't be scared
Granny is right, just be prepared
Isn't it nice to know a lot?
And a little bit
Not"
 
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Am so impressed and inspired by all that you learned with this situation. We are given lessons in ways that only we understand in the end.... So happy to know you are empowered.... that one will go a long way in so many areas of your life....
I love it when someone comes on the forum and asks questions and asks for help, and then follows thru.... The voices of many giving you choices that fit your situation... and you knowing which fit was right for you... We are all very proud of you !!!! Lots of hugs and respect !!!
 
I think taking control of the situation sort of... made me feel empowered? Maybe? I'm not really sure what it is, but I'm in excellent sprits for now.

Ain't it great to have shown yourself the person you really are? You give a lot of time to hoping and trying to help others achieve what you've done! Now just be grateful for your own help. It's your turn.
 
Ain't it great to have shown yourself the person you really are?

It really is. I know I've done it before, but this feels different, and I'm feeling extra self-congratulatory, because this was about my biological brother, which took him from a person to my own personal piece of iconography, and no one belongs to that status save sports mascots and the ultra famous.

I wish I could share my thoughts with you all, but they are in rare form (for me), that pre-linguistic stage where there are no words for the thoughts and feelings--a sort of primordial stage of revelation.
 
@Simply Simon im so sorry that I missed this update! It so happened it was on my birthday where this forum was showing me how amazing they are and was trying to keep up with all the party freaks :p and this must of gotten lost in the huge amount of alerts I was getting, so here's my delayed reply:

I used @Ragdoll Circus's line. Worked like a charm. The only extra thing I added, after many text message diatribes, was, "I have nothing to say to you. You need to leave."

I figured it would, @Ragdoll Circus had an awesome line and awesome advise and i think i may use that at some point.

Very glad it worked here!

I told her I didn't believe for a second that he couldn't con someone into getting him,

You go girl!

This was a somewhat expensive mistake, although not all that expensive in the long run, and I actually feel really good. I think taking control of the situation sort of... made me feel empowered? Maybe? I'm not really sure what it is, but I'm in excellent sprits for now.

YES! That you can set boundries, that you can stand up for yourself and that you are worth it!

I can't tell you what the support here has meant for me in this situation. I don't often posts threads anymore, and when I asked for this community's help, I was really floored by how many were willing to spend their time and energy advising and supporting me.

You ARE worthy to be supported, lifted up, cared about etc and me think you should post more when you are just having a hard time but that's just what me thinks. ;)

You are loved here and one thing I learned on Sat, there are so many wonderful and caring people here! :hug:

I suspect emotional fallout may result from this in the near future, but for now, I'm just trying to process it all at the pace I can handle, and I'm basking in the positive stuff.

Self care. Emotional fall out will likely come and for me, it seems to come out of no where so make a plan of self care and support. It sounds like you have some amazing real life friends, lean on them, lean on us, lean on someone and dont be afraid to ask for help when you need some lifting up or a non-trauma outsider view. Either way, take care of yourself my dear Simply! :hug:

I wish I could share my thoughts with you all, but they are in rare form (for me), that pre-linguistic stage where there are no words for the thoughts and feelings--a sort of primordial stage of revelation.

I hear them, or I hear/feel the ones I had/felt the first time I stood up to my own family and then continued to do so instead of cowarding in an internal emotional corner because I was and am worth it! As are you!

MANY MANY :hug:s and Im so glad this worked out!
 
I can't remember if/how Verrier wrote it, about the constant fear of displeasing the (a) parents, since your role is that you completed their lives and made them happy is your identity, or seeing them as the ideal gods of your life and struggling being stuck in that infantile place.

Also @Simply Simon that "verbal disregard for my feelings until I'm completely upset" you mentioned as a red flag with new brother, arrrrghhh. The unconscious current of being 'rescued' and the graciousness imperative that bubbles through the a-parent/adoptee dynamic, to swallow complaints and feelings to make it easier on the other person, that flows through our lives must just be irresistible to boundary busters. We've been trained to engage in mutual denial/acceptance that someone is hiding something essential. I've been in two long term abusive situations with boyfriends, the first of which (a)mom actually encouraged me to just be a better girlfriend and more understanding. Assertiveness is still a slippery word in my vocabulary when it comes to that close, close relationship that it supposed to be the stand-in for the (b)mom connection for adoptees when (a)mom is too anxious or crowding to meet it.

Adding my congratulations here to your release of the (b) family as icon. I can understand why you are proceeding with extreme vigilance with the half-sister and b-relative (in Hawaii they're just all called cousins if the relation is vague, adoption is a wild cultural thing there I am learning.) Of course I will be following as these relationships unfold.
 
Btw I was going someplace else with that first thought on your other thread and forgot to complete it when the train led to this thread because I think I was heading away from my own fears to how it relates to boundaries for me ugh. (Not used to not being able to edit or quote bear with me I'll get that hang :))
 
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