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I recently came out of the thick cloud of my C–PTSD. The worst lasted over 10 years with a delightful edition of opioid addiction. I have survived and I’m at currently at the point where fear is holding me back from getting a job/starting a new career. I love Photoshop so I recently purchased it...

Hi, have a trigger that is very well known to me and causes flashbacks a lot. I needed to drive 1.5 hours away from home for something today and while there the trigger happened immediately followed a flashback 🤬😔 I am over the flashback… Obviously. The trigger is pretty much gone. But from...

I didn’t wake up in a great mood but was hopeful that going out would improve it. I went to fill car with gas at a gas station I rarely go to. It’s inconvenient bc you can’t pay at the pump, you need to walk over to the teller. But it was way cheaper so… As I was walking over to teller he’s an...

She works at a clinic and is leaving to go private. She gave me one months notice. I ignored it until now… when we have 2-3 sessions left. She’s leaving in one WEEK. And now I’m falling apart. How do you deal with this??! I’ve never had to, thank goodness. I’ve left T’s but never the other...

Tomorrow night is my nephew’s wedding. The one I won’t be attending bc his father was my abuser as a kid. Problem is tonight. Tonight (now), is another nephew’s engagement party.and I can’t seem to get ready and go bc I’m already stuck in my dear for tomorrow’s wedding. Would of been nice if...

I’m prescribed gabapentin 800 mg tablets 3 Times daily. I took two in the morning and six more three hours ago. I take as much when I am going to something that’s difficult and I am currently at a family meal with a lot, a lot and I mean a lot of people. Gabapentin helps me a lot. Overall I...

Hi, My nephew is getting married in THREE weeks (very short engagement due to religious purposes 🙄) and I’m freaking out bc his father raped me throughout my childhood and now I have to face him for the first time since recovering these memories. I’m also, bad timing, out of a psychiatrist. Do...

I feel so old. Like a used rag that’s been through the same cycle over and over. No peace of mind. No joy left. Just fear. Sadness. I wonder if a psych place (not hospital) would help but my insurance doesn’t cover. In the good old US of A: no money, no sanity.

Some family took me to a mobster truck show… first time in my life. I was fine. The trucks revved around, being really loud and I was yelling with all and having fun. Then they stopped and ohhhh boy the chest pains began. I had prepared with meds but… So I tried breathing but pains didn’t go...

My sister is sick & I was going to fly out to her the same day she went into hospital but… I had a major panic attack a few hours b4 flight and had to cancel it. Now it’s 2 weeks later and I’m still trying to get to her. I have a few things to do but that’s not what’s stopping me. I don’t...

My nephew got engaged. His father (my ex-brother-in-law) was one of my rapists. I’m petrified of him. They had quite a few kids and it was torture seeing him at each wedding. And now the last one, the baby, is engaged. Difference between those times and now: I had not retrieved any of my...

I was in the hospital ER and needed a transvaginal ultrasound. I was more upset than usual bc I’d just gotten over a baaaad flashback. So I had to tell the tech bc tears were already streaming. Told her I have ptsd from childhood stuff related to this. She was VERY SWEET. But she made a...

I’m proud of myself bc I didn’t do it in an immature way like I have in the past. I DIDN’T walk out mid-session. I told T what I was feeling. Unfortunately she didn’t have any magical cure so I don’t think I’ll be going back… And that kills me. Explanation: My T, P-doc AND housing ALL come...

Turned out to be a very strange night. Saw a little bit of the fireworks and was fine because I was with family so that cushioned me but… Later on, I went outside and met some friends who I’ve known almost my whole life. One of the guys started telling me about a certain type of not ur usual...

I’m about to leave to watch the fireworks 45 minutes away from home. I’m nervous that I’ll have a bad reaction (flashbacks would be the worst, anxiety or panic attacks) & will have nowhere to go to escape. Should I not go? any advice for grounding techniques so that I can go? What would/are...

I was all set to go to a cousin’s wedding now. I knew about it because my family had spoken about it but I forgot until just now that tonight is my Father’s (a.k.a. One of my childhood sexual abusers) Death anniversary and I’m in “I’m curled up into myself with my body rigid as a rock” mode...

Been hyperventilating past week . Just had session with T & she recommended/suggested I go into hospital for a few days. Suggestions please?

I have suicidal ideation constantly. Every so often it gets more serious but I don’t talk to anyone about that & (obviously) it hasn’t happened. Yesterday I wasn’t doing well & I made a little goodbye video on my phone… just in case. I watched it and… I was shocked. It was like looking at a...

I’ve been hyperventilating on and off (Mostly on) for the past five or so days. It’s absolutely exhausting and I don’t know what to do. Did all my breathing exercises, sensory, even self harming is not helping it. Texted my P asking for a tranquilizer or something but I’m sure she won’t give...

I have a T that I am very happy with. But I need to remember more and she is not equipped to do things like EMDR or hypnotherapy. Have any of you done hypnotherapy and would you suggest it? What were your experiences like? do you know if it’s covered by insurance and if not how much does it...

It wasn’t a bad day but I was driving one of my uncles and had a super duper panic attack. Hyperventilating etc for close to an hour. Couldn’t breathe properly. I’m used to this. It happens daily but this one was harder. And it came with, not flashbacks, but little flashback pop ups. I...

I just had a conversation with my brother about an abuser I just recently remembered through crazy intense scary flashbacks. Brother claims that he’s done “a ton of research” and that flashbacks cannot be trusted. My T full on believes me (together with all the body memories etc). But is...

I just wrote this poem because I feel I’m going to bust. I’ve been doing so many things to try masking the pain… this seems to be the healthiest so far. Daggers of pain I’m not looking for compliments… I desperately need advice! I’m so torn… what do I do???

I’m sitting here going out of my mind with the thoughts in my head & my apparently automatic reaction to fight thinking these thoughts. So I cigarette burnt myself. Helped a little but not anymore so going to do it again. I don’t really care… so I’ll get a scar from the blisters. But I’m...

Was prescribed Robaxin 750 mg by pain management doc to take one 3 times daily. Wasn’t helping and in a lot of pain so took 6 at once 1.5 hours ago. Started feeling numbness in tongue and lips. Spoke to nurse I know who told me to keep an eye… if it gets worse I need to go to hospital. Anyone...