5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Deleted member 29920]

1. It was cool to dream about Salvador Dali :laugh:
2. Not so cool dreaming of T - scary!
3. At least she was normal in it..
4. Now I want to listen to The Corrs :facepalm: :laugh:
5. Dadaism..

 

[Ronin]

1. I know this headache, and dear brain, didn't we have an agreement about releasing of suppressed memories /on time/? This week isn't the time. So keep it, I'm not shuffling it up whole the decade for shits and giggles.
2. CJ's thoughts are all that's more beautiful in my life, no matter what the weather. ;) Thank you for the mentions, CJ.
3. What a therapist buddy said a few years ago. 'She wouldn't want you to hurt over her'.
4. What other buddy said. That shit plan of ideation guarantees failure and loss so simply don't. Blessed be sometimes just following orders. Understanding it isn't something I need to do, there.
5. Shitf*ck recovery. And f*ck sobriety, too. But well, upholding it, just because stubborn.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

Every night, I dream of airports. Sometimes, three different dreams with three different airports.
I'm hoping that ladee and barefoot ace their interviews
I've got group therapy today, which means I have to take a shower
I wonder if group will feel as surreal as usual
I feel guilty because I was planning to take my dogs on a hike this morning, but felt totally unmotivated when I got up...sigh.

 

[Sandstone]

1. I do like my cat
2. The NHS worry me
3. I managed the Tai Chi class, but as soon as it was over had to stand against the wall. Why are walls so comforting?
4. I wish I was better at sleeping
5. I'm still in two minds

 

[Deleted member 29920]

@Cashew, žádný problém :tup: :cool: :hug: (I hope I got that right)

 

[Ronin]

@Cj77 LMAO :D You did. Perfect grammar, there, too.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Perfect grammar, there, too.

Phew, thanks :geek: ;)

 

[Recovery4Me]

@Leigh925 Congrats on the T. You can get your gummy bear fix with women's one a day vitamins that comes in Gummie Drops. Insofar as soda, you can add sparkling mineral water, sparkling apple juice or sparkling grape juice to some of your juicing and it may do the trick. If you liked ginger ale add fresh ginger to it as well. Bon Appetit !

 

[barefoot]

as soon as it was over had to stand against the wall. Why are walls so comforting?

There have been a few occasions when I've been in such a state of high anxiety/dissociation and I've ended up with my nose and toes pressed against a wall. I haven't really been aware of doing it at the time. After a couple of times I told my therapist and she's also since witnessed it. She said it's about containment....like, a need for containment and safety and facing/touching the wall provides that. Not sure if you face the wall or not, but that sort of made sense to me...? And it does seem to calm me...

 

[Recovery4Me]

1. I am learning to be less prepared for battle...I no longer sleep with the giant machete beside me "all" the time...just one fillet knife. ;)
2. I am learning to ask for the free bus passes instead of purchasing one pass for a month (in fear of being stranded).
3. I may not be where I wish to be health wise, but I still did walk a mile and half today to get to the dentist (to get to the bus stops).
4. I use to love the dentist: now many of the instruments being used create anxiety within as they look like torture devices.:cautious:
5. Where the heck did the bowl at the dentist go for a drink and a rinse? It feels like a manufacturing plant now.

---double time---

1. I am so hard of hearing, I asked the tech to pull down her dental mask so I could read her lips and she rolled her eyes.
2. Why do people try to test your hearing when you tell them you can't hear and talk behind your head to ask you a question?:grumpy:
3. What good is sign language if no one else knows it? These two are the only ones I mostly use anyhow:tdown::tup: seems universal.:clown:
4. I am learning to go in public without weapons (most of the time now). But I still plan my moves with my cane.
5. I often think how trifling of a spy I would be- because I would give up almost any information as they drill into my teeth and the pain starts.:bag:

 

[UnKnown-Self]

Misses flying dreams too. I wonder why they stopped. It was so easy. I would just lift and go giddy with the realization I was good at it and it seemed so natural.
Sometimes I would visit the same places and people

Sometimes I believe emotional pain is a good thing. I think it's better than being in denial. The thing is to push through and write as much as you can while in pain. It can make no sense but keep writing what you're feeling and try to talk to yourself with compassion. I'll get through this, those MFers, I am good, whatever it takes you write. Whatever you're feeling , you write. Sometimes when I do that... Others start writing too

Is glad some find comfort in a wall. If I head towards a wall while in feeling some kinda way, you can be sure my head is gonna feel it

Pdoc visit tonight Time to reup!

Gotta walk Eddie

 

[ladee]

1. Glad I posted my distress today
2. Learning to ask for help here
3. Learned a lot today about myself
4. Trusting my gut
5. Grateful I am here