5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Chimera]

@Junebug
:hug:

 

[Recovery4Me]

1. @Junebug ...good to hear your voice and what you are really feeling in the moment:hug::hug:
2. As I have been trying to quit cigs again...I have been disassociating and not following through or completing actions.
3. I found a large bowl full of organic fresh food that I cooked...but it never made it to the frig. :confused:
4. I haven't ever wasted a meal like that and I feel kind of wasteful/sad.:x3:
5. The day went by rather quickly but I am having trouble completing things as I get sidetracked.

 

[Tinyflame]

1. Ugh. Idk @Recovery4Me . :( @Chimera liked a post where it was reminded to me I 'heard' "choose counter-intuitively". :( Apparently it was in february. I only remembered it to see it.
2. I'm really tired of all of this, I wish it would end.
3. I've been sick for nearly a month.
4. There was an article on purpose here, it's correct.
5. I have to drag myself to work.

 

[Chimera]

((( @Junebug )))

That's a pretty important thread.
I will look for purpose...I could use some direction.
Please be kind to self...are you eating?

 

[jaccat]

I seem to be in another 'up' phase at work again, not sure how.
I'm very very tired, but at least it's from exhertion, not lack of sleep.
I can't believe I ordered a Fitbit!
I want my brother to come and finish working on my garden, but it means paying him.
Not sure I even have the energy to shower.:sleep:

 

[Tinyflame]

1. Plus, it makes me feel like :poop: , to think of others that way. :( No one is responsible for me nor owes me anything, plus what about what I should be thankful for. :( It's just difficult to have to listen to "man's humanity to man". :sorry: :(
2. I'm sorry @Chimera , I didn't see the above. You are so kind. :hug: 's for you. I don't understand SD. I suppose I best re-read the thread.
3. The purpose article came up in the newsletter today, it's on the home page (I think?).
4. I think I'm eating. Too much it seems. Too much one day nothing the next, Idk. All over the map.
5. Can't think.

Hugs ++.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

spent the entire day on annoying attorney's time sheet. Every time I turned around the numbers weren't matching. Realized today the Excel formulas are screwed up on the time sheet initially given to me. Now I have to check everyone's.

Smell dog pee in the living room. Eddie has to stay in the laundry room when I am at work. He hates it but I can't be on my hands and knees sniffing for the offensive spot to clean it until I totally shampoo on a regular basis. The smell is wayyyyyyy too triggering. He waits when he is in the laundry room. Even if he didn't I could mop.

f*ck a duck and shittin' feathers.

Don't ask, I have no idea.

6:30 and I'm in bed. I should sit outside with Eddie but just not in the mood, plus I'm already in my jammies.

 

[Ronin]

1. At least that thing with the client is over.
2. I frickin' love administrative. Not.
3. Unexpected support / weirded out.
4. Decidedly not thinking.
5. Alive -> Useful: f*ck sake that.

 

[Recovery4Me]

1. @Junebug (((hugs))) Date has to be almost over by now, yes?:hug:
2. @jaccat CONGRATS on the FitBit! :tup:
3. @Alice.in.Wonderland I lived in an areas where the Dads (on their good behavior days) said -F.a.Duck and feathers chant! All blue collar WWII Vets.:whistling::tup::laugh: So I giggled fondly at the memory. Thanks.
4. @Cashew You seem to go in shock when you get assistance. :hilarious: I do not know why I smile each time.:wideeyed:
5. @Chimera :hug::hug::hug: because you have been delightfully sharing hugs and I wanted you to have a few extra. *Please keep one for you.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

@Recovery4Me

LMAO! I have no idea where it came from. A few months ago I just started saying it, working in the apartment struggling with something and it made me laugh.
Someone must have said it in my past and a part of me remembered ... Too funny ... Since it's just me and Eddie, I think some parts are surfacing in little ways more comfortably. That and my acceptance of them. Thank for the info! Plus my family , the grand and great grands were all military and blue collar workers, hard working and well, hard drinking too.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

@Cashew
Work in admin, it beats retail and the benefits are good but... I would change in a heartbeat to be doing behind the scenes work.

Take the support, the unexpected is sometime the best. Besides you deserve it!

 

[Tinyflame]

1. Strange how support can seem- well strange, & nearly traumatizing :wideeyed:
2. You are such kind & good people :hug:
3. I forced myself to walk through an intersection I've avoided all but a handful of times for 5 months. Yay me. Now I feel :sick: .
4. Yes @Recovery4Me 2 dates left, or 4, may 7th/ 8th, & may 11th/ 12th (3 events). Strange, I forgot it might be impacting how I feel? -Weird.
5. Something weighs heavily on my mind re:the 8th. It's small but seems big, Idk. I don't think I've ever said it 'out loud' (or otherwise). :( Ugh.