Accupuncture Appointment Today.

[Philippa]

I'm a little nervous.

I have an appointment to see an accupuncturist in a few hours and although I enjoy th ebenefits of this afterwards, I did have a bad experience with it a few years ago, after the sexual assault I experienced.

Basically the guy, who had been a practitioner for over 15 years, put one needle in a nerve ending, which caused me EXTREME pain, and I was not too polite about telling him to get the needle out of me at the time either.

He said that had never happened in all the time he'd been practising. I wrote it off as a mistake, and left.
I returned two weeks later for another session, and it happened again?? This time it was even more excruciating than the last time, and he was very freaked out himself. He didn't know why or what had happened, and apologized profusely. Suffice to say, I did not go back for a third time.

I wondered where it was due to the extreme emotional pain I was in at the time, as to why I responded to the treatment this way...but never found the reason? Since our pain body is stored in the cellular memory of the body, I thought maybe it had something to do with this?

So, that was years ago, and I recently decided I wanted to try it again, but I'm a little hesitant about it. Has anyone here ever experienced this sort of thing with accupuncture. whilst recovering from ptsd? I'm not sure if the ptsd had anything to do with my reaction, but I want to speak to the therapist about it when I do go, just to see what she says. I just wanted to know if anyone here has also had a similar experience, and if they know why it happened?

 

[The Albatross]

I had no problem with it (needles aren't part of my traumas) and I enjoyed the sessions, but it didn't last so I quit. Once they'd take the needles out I'd be back to my regular uptight self the next day. But once I was so relaxed and at peace, I asked her if I could hang on the table just a bit longer and she gave me an extra 15 minutes. I was grateful.

Hope you have a good session.

 

[Philippa]

Thanks Albatross.
It went fine. The woman was absolutely lovely and she took my fears into consideration and made sure she was gentle and didn't do anything that might be too overwhelming. She listened to my concerns and my story, and it was a very relaxing session.

Needles don't really spook me that much, I've had plenty of them, it was just this one particular time when he put them in too deep or something and it hit a raw nerve. But it was fine this time.

 

[The Albatross]

Glad it went well Philippa hope it gives you some benefit. I actually siezed on the line in my post in my dreams last night where I said "needles aren't part of my trauma". Got some memory retrieval on it and will write about it maybe today. I over came it by doing hospital clinicals, working medical, and even being a platlet donor for many years. I guess I desensitized myself but wouldn't have realized it without your post.

 

[Philippa]

Glad it went well Philippa hope it gives you some benefit. I actually siezed on the line in my post in my dreams last night where I said "needles aren't part of my trauma". Got some memory retrieval on it and will write about it maybe today. I over came it by doing hospital clinicals, working medical, and even being a platlet donor for many years. I guess I desensitized myself but wouldn't have realized it without your post.

Wow, I hope it was of some benefit for you to be reminded of this Albatross.

I've had my fair share of needles, so I guess I'm pretty desensitized by now, though I still get a bit irksome when she is about to put them in...the anticipation of them I guess.

 

[The Albatross]

It was, I connected the hospital traumas (some of which are still blacked out) and passing out every time I had to go to the doc office or a hospital (I used to have to find a nurse and ask if they had smelling salts. Because I was in situations where I couldn't avoid, but I knew that I was gonna pass out, never knew why though) to the fainting spells I had from 9 to 32. Some of this was blood sugar related but most events happened when I would either smell the disinfectant or see needles.

Even though I didn't understand it, I was able to disconnect the trigger with needles, and they don't use that disinfectant anymore in clinical environments.