All Questions, No Real Answers

[fin]

I am going to learn to swim first and then maybe....if

I so want to try that....its just sounds soo amazing
~fin

 

[beatle_bailey]

OK every one
thankyou for the encouragement to talk of some good stuff . Here is another good story .

A story from when I was in the Army Ranger unit . now you have to imagin the very best and intence train you can thingk of . we were winter Rangers , so we had to preform in extream tempatures . climb very tall cliffs , cross very cold rivers , find our way by map and cumpos and scale very tall mountains in the day or at night and always under what ever condission was going on . we would become experts in every type of Army training posible ,and then train every infitry company on the biggest fort in the states Fort Hood Texas . so now we were thrown into the other extream type of tempriture .
we by then thought we were indestuctable and were capable of any feet put before us . even proved it many times over .

so here my buddies and I wanted to go swimming , well can you think of what we call fun swimming .
This one lake we knew , Lake belton was really huge . there was a bridge that crossed it . the bridge was abiut a mile or more long and down at the lakes edge we would set up camp . course we had lots of Beer pot fishing gear and other impiment or toys Rangers play with .

well you had to climb up to the road { which was easy } walk out past 3 sasuport struts of the bridge before the water was deep enuff for the jump . we had check that first , we were not stupid .
some times we had girls with us or there eould just be othergirs and guys there enjoying a normal swimI always wore cut off geans . gean were tough .

the firft time we 4 or 5 of us jumped we had one man out there with a raft for safety . this bridge was two hundred feet tall ..................1 we measured it , but shit we jumped out of planes so why not this little ol bridge . we jumped off and you could count to tree thousand before you hit the water . you had better have your legs tight together your arms up straight and you head up ,not looking at the water fastly aproching .
we would all figure this out from some minor injuries . but what fun we had at this lake . it turned out to be a big thing for the summer ,when we had the chance . one day the place was pretty packed with young ladies , ther boy friends an us Rangers I was hot so I took the walk to the jump site , every one always watched ij case some thin went wrong well I had this great jump ,but I guess my geans were just a bit to worn out and the impact of the llanding nearly tore them right off me . every one had a good laugh and the girls giggled . anouther timeour buddy Buxton came out saw what we were doig and walkout to the jump site and dove ,doing a full backwards gainer , we all flipped out , he could dive .he got many slaps on the back and bear .
we all made one last trip fall was coming . Iwent out to jump ,I was over the rail ready to go jsut the slightest of a grip holding me , iwas about ot jump when for some reason I change my mind and grabbed the rail . Amotor boat and 2 water skyers passed right under me . that scared the shit out of me so bad I walked back and sucked down a six pack every one was talking about wether or not I would have hit the boat or landed between the two skyer .

me I just continplated that for a while and would later watch in back of me before I would jump again . Talk about a good heart pounding rush that was . it just never stopped our antics .

Beatle Bailey

 

[Luthien]

Those stories ARE great. :) I had such a big smile on my face reading about bridge jumping. I could picture it so well.

I wouldn't do it, because I have water/depth issues...major phobia.

I'd LOVE to go skydiving though. it's on my real life to do list. Though I have to find a buddy to do it with. (My hubby wouldn't do it)

Junebug, you wanna go with me?

Beatle, thanks for these wonderful stories, as well as the more serious ones. It does us all some good to remember positives, or even just live vicariously through others.

I just experienced jumping off a bridge into water through you. :)

 

[beatle_bailey]

today it is snowing . it is a beatiful tning { I love the snow except I can't ride my Bike } but I went out and shoveled rhe snow , really just for the hell of it . I live in a complex and don't have to do a thing if'n I don't want to . I was board though . so as i'm shovelin I also get to help others { older people woman or just any one I want } juat because I can .
My heart is kind of in a meloncally mode today {if that is the right word } so don't have any opinions or stories that I feel I can write .

however I did add a couple photo's to my profile , might put a smile on some faces out there .
Beatle Bailey

 

[Cindy]

Beatle you are one crazy guy, but I love it.

I also have had many adventures in my life. I cherish each one. Some are hysterical when I look back at them. Others I think, how did I get away with that with only these injuries. I believe in living life to the fullest but am guilty of holding back the past few years. Soon it will be time to spread my wings again. My only hesitation is travelling alone but I don't see another way at this point so off I will go to search out unique adventures while they are still available.

I also did some cliff diving in the Amazon with a native indian guide. We climbed up behind the waterfall. The last I saw of him was his feet going through the fall - he had climbed through the water to an outcrop of rock. I knew it was there but did not know where the hand holds were. So there I was behind the waterfall sending my arm through the water trying to locate the hand holds. When I thought I had found them I pulled myself through the water which caught me in the chest and down I went for a back flop from about 30 ft. Whew - what a rush. The Indian laughed and laughed. I did too when I could breathe again. The whole excursion is quite a memory. We flew in a twin engine aircraft with 13 people and an indian guide that spoke 5 languages. 7 nationalities were present on the excursion into the amazon basin. We landed on a dirt strip and were greeted by an indian in a loin cloth and a timex watch who led the merry band of adventurers into multiple waterfalls and gorges to 'play' in. Outside the village store was their pet leopard. I bought a blow dart gun which to this day I still have. You just have to remember not to inhale; ha ha.

Cindy

 

[beatle_bailey]

Cindy great story .
you go girl . I would love to see the Amazon , rain forest and all else it includes , bhut money holds back aome adventures .
I will Ride my bike cross contry this summer mostly along but have many Army Rangers I will visit on the way to Oragonand Washington State . with another Ranger rendevous stuck in the middle of it all of it . will get to jump from a mile high in the sky again and shoot lot of real big weapons too . But the best part is hanging out with all the other old and young Rangers .
Can't wait for the ride of my life .
Beatle Bailey
PS. arn't those jumps just to much .. OHH did you get to check out my pictures .

 

[fin]

hey beatlebailey

I did bailey -last night....is that the bike you are going on? hey you changed the pictures... Love the snow pics

I hope you dont think I was being nosey or anything...I just wondered from reading here. and I hope its ok ... hey have you taken pictures off as well?

~fin

 

[beatle_bailey]

Loola.
please except my appallagees for not responding to your post on my thread ,back on page 4 I think .

I have just been reviewing my thread {questions and answers}not the full title .

Well I saw your reply for the first time , I think . I was rather messed in the head at the time , so can't even recall . Hence why I am reading itt all the way through now . anyways

you spoke of having some of the same problems I spoke of . Ihate depression ,being stuck , not wanting to wake up and yet we do .
In one way I am fortunate and not at the same time .I am diabled ,so I have just enough to live on ,but also to much time on my hands .
I do volunteer with troubled kids and go to schoo;s and other instatutions as often as I am asked . it just never keeps me busy enuff. friends are needed for us and it sucks you are also stuck and stressed out . I hope your friends confront you as they have me . to bring me out of my stress and depression.
It dose Help me to know that there are others like me . That is why I am here , Beause my friend Goingonhope introduced me to this site 2 yrs ago .
thanks again for your help , , , as late as it is coming
Beatle Bailey

 

[Grama-Herc]

You just mentioned, in passing, that you volunteer with troubled kids and schools, etc. What do you do?

Not everyone can do this so please share a side of you we don't know

 

[beatle_bailey]

I have just spent over 4 hours trying to answer your question gramaherk and hit the send post button and lost most every thing . I will try to fix it later . now i'mpissed off and want to pull out the 2 lb. sledge hammer and smash this peice of junk.
Beatle

 

[beatle_bailey]

Thi is one thing I do.

I like questions because I don't have to think of answers I just tell the truth . I go to schools, jails ,woman in transition from jail to to freedom, Babies having babies,troubled kids schools and boy and Girls juvenile holding institutions. I speak to these people and kids of Alcoholism,drug abuse,and the consequences, being physical mental or spiritual .
I talk about trauma and trouble I have caused through my live to others or myself , my state of mind from early or latter PTSD , booze or drug abuse,which would spiral out of control until I was left in a state of contemptuous living with AIDS, Hepatitis-C and one busted up body in constant pain of body and mind . Pew that is a mouth full.

I try to share what happened in my life so they may find a better life by seeking out help for them-self or just not taking the road that I took.
I would explain to them how I destroyed the people around me that I loved without even knowing it or saying I'm not hurting you just let me live my life and leave me alone. Everyone in my family was always telling me what to do , I was the youngest of 5 kids.
I would speak of how I was influenced by the years I grew up in, the patriotism, altruism, chivalry and honor I was taught and believed in and yet at the same time seeing and taking part in some of the rebellious things that were happening around me, being Sex, Booze, Drugs and Rock an Roll, the Viet Nam era and desertion by fellow countrymen. I would never desert my countrymen.

I,d start telling a story of what kind of antics my friends and I would do for fun. Some of these antics were federal offenses then and now but as kids we hardly ever got caught or thought of the consequences. I'd talk of how my drinking and drug use was already out of control before I got out of school but I didn't care,every one was doing the same . My Army stories would catch more of there attention and then my major car wreck on my 21st birthday, how I met the love of my life while is was recuperating from that brush with death.
Then the story would start to change. I got busted for 3 federal offenses,went to prison and had my 22nd birthday , how my love and I got back together and were then separated by the Army , then how the next thing I new she had been raped then murdered . From there on I changed till I would spiral in and out of control till all control was lost. ext,ext .
By the time I was done speaking most all boy, girl, woman or man would have a strange look in there eyes, how, why, or worse.
Doing this I wouldn't hold back anything, they could see the raw emotions pure out of me. I would be drained every time I did this, even today.
Many people in any of these different types of audiences would thank me for speaking, ask for help for them-self or there parents, but this one girl a junior in high school said to me ( many have come hear to speak with us. Doctors, Police, Lawyers even Judges. we never listened.)
This little lady looked me straight in the eyes and said (I heard every word you said) she hugged me then turned away still deep in thought.
I do this still today because I was teaching classes in the Army, I can still teach. This is just a different class, one I have lived. If I can save one I have done well. I also do this because it helps me, even if just a little bit each time.

well I think I answered your Q GramaHerk .
I'm done thats for sure.:dontknow::crazy::wall::rolleyes:
This is a lot of work, this proper gammer stuff.
I have been taught , when all else fails help some else. that act helps you.

Beatle Bailey

 

[Tinyflame]

Dear Beatle, -you do, do so much already.

Your words and wisdom and support are more powerful thank you know.
Thank you! :Hug_emoticon: