I feel very anxious today. It's not really a panik attack, but this feeling of anxiety that forms in my chest until it hurts, burns and wont leave. I am also kind of nervous. I don't know if it's the holiday. I've been okay on christmas for years, although normally I am with my best friend and her family. this year the plan sank however and I had to stay home alone.
It doesn't help, that I don't feel all that safe at home at the moment. I have neighbours who tend to party loud and that sounds really aggressive through the wall. I don't know if that will happen today. Also there was an accident this year which made me kind of afraid of them. I'd really hoped I wouldn't be here today. I think I really stress myself today.
Distraction doesn't really help and I am kind of adrift, don't know exactly what to do. Nothing seems 'right' as to what would make me feel better, so I thought I would try and write it down here and see if that helps. Maybe it will.
It doesn't help, that I don't feel all that safe at home at the moment. I have neighbours who tend to party loud and that sounds really aggressive through the wall. I don't know if that will happen today. Also there was an accident this year which made me kind of afraid of them. I'd really hoped I wouldn't be here today. I think I really stress myself today.
Distraction doesn't really help and I am kind of adrift, don't know exactly what to do. Nothing seems 'right' as to what would make me feel better, so I thought I would try and write it down here and see if that helps. Maybe it will.