Very, very wise words. To the external world I look like the most competent person ever. I advocated (pre PTSD) for everyone I knew. Except me. During the PTSD I advocated for me, but yes, I got hooked into these endless battles (a distraction?) and was fighting the 'good fight'.I kind of act as if every system can be changed, every injustice made just... etc. Reality is that no, it can't be. Not in this life. Accepting that I am actually somewhat helpless to change this system or outcome, in this circumstance, but I'm not helpless as a person,
I think I got healthier with this whole concept when I realized that it was eating my energy and ruining my life. As well, when I understood the way the system worked. I mean, systems are put into place, as is the dogma attached to those systems. But nobody but the system wins. So rather than fighting against this invisible force, I learned other ways around things that I thought were 'unfair' or whatever word I used at the time.
I actually notice quite a few people who have this pit bull behaviour these days. Like being caught in a hamster wheel.
I am not 'all there' yet when it comes to not biting when it comes to this type of thing. I will be watching this thread, as I feel it is extremely relevant and valuable. Thank you.