Attachment Issues

[Core]

Oh no, Pencil, you shouldn't hug someone. You should simply exercise to release hormones that make you happy, and then you will be forever fine and completely cured. :rolleyes:

 

[Pencil]

It is an eclipse, because my name is actually the Norwegian word for sun,

I love that.

I'm not sure those three words mean anything outside of Springer's head, don't worry. Ask her to explain and see what happens.

This on topic off topic thing:

Is it a punishable rule on this forum or simply etiquette? I am a serial topic violator.

 

[Core]

And when you're all buff you won't be scared of touch, because you can then punch anyone and give them a total blackout, no effort required! :tup: So there, I helped you, I solved aaall of your problems. :rolleyes:

(You didn't scare me off, I just help derailing now. Sorry. :p)

 

[Springer80]

You see I feel less of a physical pull for that since this work/thread has been putting me through my paces. A weird thing that happened the other week, which was a stage that I didn't draw, was a conversation between my head and my belly and when it started my whole body was slightly rocking which I do when I dissociate but at the point of 'enlightenment' my upper half stopped, my head felt less cloudy but my legs kept going side to side.

o me it seems that every day just solidifies the NO TOUCH obsession that has developed.

You want in theory to find a therapist that works with at least an open or pro attitude to touch and is role in recovery though, yeah?

 

[Springer80]

Is it a punishable rule on this forum or simply etiquette? I am a serial topic violator.

No Pencil, your a polymath and the world needs more of 'em. Besides it's your thread ain't it? So unless you report yourself?

 

[Core]

I think it's either "if it ain't your diary, stay on topic" and/or "mess up your own thread, let new discussions grow out of others, but try to stay on topic in other's threads". Could be neither of course.

If I jumped in here and went "If only YOU GUYS knew what happened to me today! First I went to the store and then I got a letter! And YOU know what, I bought apples and was then told I'd recieve free ones, a whole ton! Oh boy am I disappointed in myself for spending that money blahblah" it would be different from you, Pencil, jumping on and off topic yourself in this thread, and letting discussions grow out and come back to each other... I think.

 

[Pencil]

I nearly hit the school counselor who tried to take my hand - that was expressing anger in some way - between her two hands. Elsewhere I told the story of how I jerked so violently that I hit the wall behind me. I was there to convince her that I am the paragon of sanity, but then I behaved like a lunatic when she tried to touch me. So, I had to recover and then take HER hand and apologise. And THAT gave her the idea I was fine with a hug at the end of each session. Thank heavens those sessions are now over.

And you know, somewhere, somehow, this really has to do with attachment issues!

With the posts crossing - the topic now really has gone south, and I sound like a lunatic talking about hitting the school counselor while the two of you are talking about forum rules :D

I don't know if there's something wrong with me but I'm finding this conversation hilarious!

 

[Springer80]

I sound like a lunatic talking about hitting the school counselor :D

I don't know if there's something wrong with me but I'm finding this conversation hilarious!

I wouldn't worry about sounding like a loon :wideeyed:....It is pretty funny....maybe one of us should back track to the last ACTUAL point tomorrow or something. I'm bowing out guys, it's late. Good night.

 

[Core]

I don't know if there's something wrong with me but I'm finding this conversation hilarious!

Oh believe me, you're not alone. The only serious contribution I could possibly come up with, is this: Attachment hormones are released upon physical contact. If you're not having phyiscal contact with anyone, you are obviously not having those hormones released, and when touch makes you panic, well. If I'm remembering correctly, physical contact has often not been positive for you... and that's where my brain stops.

That was real helpful, huh?

 

[Pencil]

.maybe one of us should back track to the last ACTUAL point tomorrow or something. I'm bowing out guys, it's late. Good night.

Goodnight Springer, we'll continue from where there was an actual point.

Thanks!

 

['91 Girl]

Oh Pencil, I am quietly reading along and laughing like a maniac.

What do you all mean going to bed?!! It's only 6:30pm here! ;)
Good night. Sleep well.

 

[Pencil]

Attachment hormones are released upon physical contact. If you're not having phyiscal contact with anyone, you are obviously not having those hormones released,

Core!!!!

Why doensn't anybody else GET this!!????

Listen to this: I have a 7 yo daughter, who was obviously conceived approximately 8 years ago. (And THIS is another story alltogether!!!! And I will obviously not go into it here or now). Apart from that, and apart from my daughter, I have not touched another human being in then years, due to ... wait for it .... attachment problems!!!!

YOU are the FIRST person on this thread who might just understand why I have problems with the therapist. I feel as if I talk myself into MORE paranoia, fear, aversion, need, dire need, whatever by TALKING about attachment ....

YES, it WAS real helpful!