Bad doctor. How can I function at work with PTSD?

[BeTheLight]

Ive been off work for two years.
My doctor never sent in my paperwork to great west life disability through my employer.
I am now cut off payments and back to work within the next week.
Who works with ptsd?
I dont know how the F i am going to be able to start my shifts at 530 am when i barely sleep as usual.
I am a supervisor and deal with a mental health environment.
Im back to work soon and already feel the stress of the psych patients the staff i feel like ill return and just f*cking BLOW .
I am so afraid.
Who functions at work with ptsd?

 

[Survivor3]

Ive been off work for two years.
My doctor never sent in my paperwork to great west life disability through my employer.
I am now cut off payments and back to work within the next week.
Who works with ptsd?
I dont know how the F i am going to be able to start my shifts at 530 am when i barely sleep as usual.
I am a supervisor and deal with a mental health environment.
Im back to work soon and already feel the stress of the psych patients the staff i feel like ill return and just f*cking BLOW .
I am so afraid.
Who functions at work with ptsd?

Hi.I have complex PTSD and haven't worked in over a decade. Various people that I do speak to on here work and I admire them for that but I find it very difficult to do that.
can you not speak to your docters and or make a complaint about the paper work not being sent?
Sorry your having a tough time, it must be causing you alot of stress.
Best wishes S3.

 

[BeTheLight]

Hi.I have complex PTSD and haven't worked in over a decade. Various people that I do speak to on here work and I admire them for that but I find it very difficult to do that.
can you not speak to your docters and or make a complaint about the paper work not being sent?
Sorry your having a tough time, it must be causing you alot of stress.
Best wishes S3.

Thank you for your input! I come from a place of no judgement so if you dont work good on you for taking care of yourself.
I am a supervisor and am responsible for opening a large kitchen in a hospital so if i need help i can only count on me. I try to stay out of fear but woah f*ck this is big for me. I will try and see if there is a place i can complain about dr. He really screwed me over. He said theres no way i can work anywhere with my mood disorder etc but if he doesnt do the paperwork his opinion means sweet nothing to disability.

 

[Friday]

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I am so afraid.

You could also look at it as a win/win?

Because if you go in and completely surprise yourself, and do amazingly well? That’s a flat out win.

However, since it sounds like you don’t want to be working, right now? If you go in, and end up having a meltdown? Then you’re off work again, on a new clock, with even more evidence to present to disability.. as you’ve spent 2 years off work, attempted a return with these results. IE you’ve just ticked one more item off their list of things they want you do do before receiving assistance, as well as demonstrated both a willingness to push yourself, and what areas of your life will probably need the most assistance in order to be able to move forward.

 

[BeTheLight]

You could also look at it as a win/win?

Because if you go in and completely surprise yourself, and do amazingly well? That’s a flat out win.

However, since it sounds like you don’t want to be working, right now? If you go in, and end up having a meltdown? Then you’re off work again, on a new clock, with even more evidence to present to disability.. as you’ve spent 2 years off work, attempted a return with these results. IE you’ve just ticked one more item off their list of things they want you do do before receiving assistance, as well as demonstrated both a willingness to push yourself, and what areas of your life will probably need the most assistance in order to be able to move forward.

Good point.
I want to work.
I dont want to return to work with the same issues. I cry etc and ive dont dialectical behaviour therapy and take cipralex and go to the gym but that doesnt change my irritability or like loss of controll of emotions . i hope for the best . thanks so much for your input! I guess im embarassed knowing everyone will know ive been off for 2 years and it says on the call out list and schedule that im LTD. might as well tattoo it on my forehead!

 

[Overcoming]

@BeTheLight I work in the mental health field with PTSD. Be gentle on yourself and know when to take a break. If you can, develop positive peer supports. The field is tough and I don't know what I would do without my colleagues.

 

[AGTT]

Hey so PTSD was very new to me .. only realised I had it this year and I realised because of situations at work. This escalated and my health went down. However after seeing Occupational health and understanding my symptoms and condition and how I can help myself and what things work could do to help me. I think I managed sometimes.

I think it completely depends on you, your condition, your work environment, your role, and the level of support your employer will give you.

I mean if this particular role triggers you, and things can't be improved or adjustments made because of PTSD then health is more important.

But it could also be a case of trial and error and figuring out what you can work around and what might work and worst case scenario like Friday said at least you tried.. and then you can rule it out once you've tried and know for a fact it's stil unsuitible.

 

[BeTheLight]

Hey so PTSD was very new to me .. only realised I had it this year and I realised because of situations at work. This escalated and my health went down. However after seeing Occupational health and understanding my symptoms and condition and how I can help myself and what things work could do to help me. I think I managed sometimes.

I think it completely depends on you, your condition, your work environment, your role, and the level of support your employer will give you.

I mean if this particular role triggers you, and things can't be improved or adjustments made because of PTSD then health is more important.

But it could also be a case of trial and error and figuring out what you can work around and what might work and worst case scenario like Friday said at least you tried.. and then you can rule it out once you've tried and know for a fact it's stil unsuitible.

Hey thanks for your reply.
Yes well im actually on long term disability. Cut off at the 2 year mark. Currently not paid by anyone.
To apply for welfare in canada you need to be searching dor work with a 3 weeks work search.
I am not supposed to work but i have been applying for jobs.
Afterall why not!?
I am unable to return to my own occupation and the insurance co says i can go down 75 percent of my wage so i can apply to work in a... Wait for it.. FOOD COURT! Lol!
I make 18.31 an hour and apparently its ok to go down feom a government job to a minimum wage job. f*ck them.
My grandpa has PTSD and was an immigration officer. He worked.
My dad had ptsd from child sexual abuse from a priest. He worked.
I have ptsd and i can also work. I need the right job. So i have been applying for janitor jobs. Easier.

 

[AGTT]

I totally understand... I'm off sick but on employemnt benifit only starting 3 weeks ago .. and it's the same where I have to look for a job to get the help. I had a melt down at the office last week... And they said they will relax the commitments until I have seen a doctor. If the doctor gives me a sick note I will have to do less rigourous searching. So I'm hopefull.. I'm glad it's relaxed for a week or so so I can just catch my breath!!!

But I will be ready to apply after some rest and like you, I will be applying for anything to get my hands on.

Wow they told you to do that..
I mean actually job center putting similar pressures on me, I don't want to lower my standards ... But if it gets you out of a rut that I know I can get in ... It might be worth doing just temporarily. I can't be bothered or have the energy to fight against things right now. My.body is telling me I need to take it slow and easy.

If it's not that field / job you're going back into YET do something fun or relaxed in the mean time but there may be other roles out there that aren't such a low drop. Middle ground. I hope you get something worth while! And something that's good for you too.

 

[TruthSeeker]

Ive been off work for two years.
My doctor never sent in my paperwork to great west life disability through my employer.
I am now cut off payments and back to work within the next week.
Who works with ptsd?
I dont know how the F i am going to be able to start my shifts at 530 am when i barely sleep as usual.
I am a supervisor and deal with a mental health environment.
Im back to work soon and already feel the stress of the psych patients the staff i feel like ill return and just f*cking BLOW .
I am so afraid.
Who functions at work with ptsd?

If I were you....consider going into a related field....where the stress is lower. I found dealing with other people's issues (parents of kids with disabilities....and the more severely angry hormonally challenged youth, when I was symptomatic worsened the PTSD-and my patience was shit. Consider meds and a job change? For sleep, my doc prescribed hydroxyzine (an antihistamine and used to treat anxiety/sleep issues), plus Magnesium citrate which really makes me drowsy. Now, I only take it sometimes....at night. Really does help the sleep...and you can tack on Melatonin if need be. Being away from teaching has made the world of difference...I spent my life telling other's how to fix their parenting parenting or in the case of kids-their morals and behavior-kinda ignored my own. I wouldn't work again in a job where I had to help fix other people's mental state....way too much continuous stress.

 

[BeTheLight]

If I were you....consider going into a related field....where the stress is lower. I found dealing with other people's issues (parents of kids with disabilities....and the more severely angry hormonally challenged youth, when I was symptomatic worsened the PTSD-and my patience was shit. Consider meds and a job change? For sleep, my doc prescribed hydroxyzine (an antihistamine and used to treat anxiety/sleep issues), plus Magnesium citrate which really makes me drowsy. Now, I only take it sometimes....at night. Really does help the sleep...and you can tack on Melatonin if need be. Being away from teaching has made the world of difference...I spent my life telling other's how to fix their parenting parenting or in the case of kids-their morals and behavior-kinda ignored my own. I wouldn't work again in a job where I had to help fix other people's mental state....way too much continuous stress.

Hey thank you for the real life experience. I hear you !!
I have spent many years working in health care and the last 5 years in psych. I love my job but psych is constant. I knew that getting into it but the insafe work was what put me off work. I never even asked to be off but its for the best. Like you said its not just the kids its the family too you have to deal with.

I totally understand... I'm off sick but on employemnt benifit only starting 3 weeks ago .. and it's the same where I have to look for a job to get the help. I had a melt down at the office last week... And they said they will relax the commitments until I have seen a doctor. If the doctor gives me a sick note I will have to do less rigourous searching. So I'm hopefull.. I'm glad it's relaxed for a week or so so I can just catch my breath!!!

But I will be ready to apply after some rest and like you, I will be applying for anything to get my hands on.

Wow they told you to do that..
I mean actually job center putting similar pressures on me, I don't want to lower my standards ... But if it gets you out of a rut that I know I can get in ... It might be worth doing just temporarily. I can't be bothered or have the energy to fight against things right now. My.body is telling me I need to take it slow and easy.

If it's not that field / job you're going back into YET do something fun or relaxed in the mean time but there may be other roles out there that aren't such a low drop. Middle ground. I hope you get something worth while! And something that's good for you too.

Thank you! And take it easy but dont miss any doctor appointments, dont forget to fill your meds, and dont forget to get paperwork in prior to deadline. Youll be fine. Warning though. If you file for LTD and become.successfull at 2 years you will.. WILL be cut off AT YOUR "transit definition" which is at 2 years. You WILL NOT BE PAID if you appeal. Appeal can differ in time ranges but usually 60 days the insurance co has so they dont pay. Prepare yourself now. Because right when i was doing ok i got cut.off. the nightmares from ptsd increased, stress, anxiety, anger, depression. I finally have been paid by income assistance yesterday. I applied january 28th. VERY STRESSFUL. THE INSURANCE CO WANTS THIS SO YOU RETURN TO WORK.
Hang in there. Big huggs