SeekingAfrica
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So my medication was clearly not working great in the last months but I was waiting to visit a doctor because I couldn't afford it. Finally I did, and given the information he had of my history, recent and further, he switched me from one SNRI to another and instead of my usual something to sleep+emergency meds for panic attacks, he decided to switch those 2 for 1 thing instead- Lyrica, or rather our version of that in my country. Started me off on low dose (75) at night. I was meant to take that for 3 nights and then increase to that plus 1 during the day. Could choose to take in morning or afternoon. Meanwhile I had incjured my ankle falling but I was healing. Then had to travel home and about a day after I traveled, I got the flu. My mom had gotten it before I traveled so not as surprising since I was visiting them. Between my ankle and the flu I was feeling so sick, I didn't pay attention to the increased dose. I've switched a few medications in the past and while most may or may not have worked, some helped and some didn't, I never had an adverse reaction.
As some of you know I was in a really dark place in November and December and I was working hard to heal.
Now, as I said, I was a bit busy with fever and being sick to notice much how the medication was doing. I thought any dysregulation was mostly being sick and injured at the same time. A lot of it was.
Fasdt forward to yesterday when most of the sickness was starting to wear off. I was still sleeping at random times, not sleeping when I should, starting to get panicky about being outside again- after being consistently social during January. I was also feeling like a zombie most day, my head heavy, noise in my ears, feeling resistance to making mysekf do anything. I have trouble with getting myself to shower, do dishes, chores, let alone working (from home) or working out... Sitting on a computer at my desk rather than in bed is an issue. Same feeling I had when deeply depressed but without the gradual buildup in feelings. And then random bad feelings.
I'm getting enough to be able to go to a doctor sometime in the next days, but this can't go on. I'm both scared to stop that medication and weary of stopping on my own accord.
But things are getting really dark and any day more I spend in bed scares me. I worked really hard on improving and I'm a bit gutted that rather than helping my anxiety this medication is taking such turn. I've never actually felt like a zombie on any medication and didn't imagine I would- until now. It's like my most depressed days, except with no warning, like I was excited to be back and had energy and plans and things and people waiting for me- and suddenly even after the flu I can barely get myself out of bed, I sleep in patches, I am either super hungry or have no appetite which is weird for me, and once again I am super anxious from daily things, sort of stopping my progress in bigger things.
Besides wait from my money to come in so I can go to a doctor, what do I do?
Besides that, depression plus my ankle plus flu hit me really hard trying to manage symptoms rather than work. I feel so lost,
As some of you know I was in a really dark place in November and December and I was working hard to heal.
Now, as I said, I was a bit busy with fever and being sick to notice much how the medication was doing. I thought any dysregulation was mostly being sick and injured at the same time. A lot of it was.
Fasdt forward to yesterday when most of the sickness was starting to wear off. I was still sleeping at random times, not sleeping when I should, starting to get panicky about being outside again- after being consistently social during January. I was also feeling like a zombie most day, my head heavy, noise in my ears, feeling resistance to making mysekf do anything. I have trouble with getting myself to shower, do dishes, chores, let alone working (from home) or working out... Sitting on a computer at my desk rather than in bed is an issue. Same feeling I had when deeply depressed but without the gradual buildup in feelings. And then random bad feelings.
I'm getting enough to be able to go to a doctor sometime in the next days, but this can't go on. I'm both scared to stop that medication and weary of stopping on my own accord.
But things are getting really dark and any day more I spend in bed scares me. I worked really hard on improving and I'm a bit gutted that rather than helping my anxiety this medication is taking such turn. I've never actually felt like a zombie on any medication and didn't imagine I would- until now. It's like my most depressed days, except with no warning, like I was excited to be back and had energy and plans and things and people waiting for me- and suddenly even after the flu I can barely get myself out of bed, I sleep in patches, I am either super hungry or have no appetite which is weird for me, and once again I am super anxious from daily things, sort of stopping my progress in bigger things.
Besides wait from my money to come in so I can go to a doctor, what do I do?
Besides that, depression plus my ankle plus flu hit me really hard trying to manage symptoms rather than work. I feel so lost,