Yeah, it makes sense to be scared to jump into all this. It also seems like it’s been really hard to accept the diagnosis too. Even years after my own diagnosis, I still sometimes resist it. I try to remove it’s just a tool to help me get help to do more of what I want to do in life.
Because you are resisting the diagnosis that’s probably why he was trying to help explain what was common for PTSD.
Something to remember: you don’t have to talk about the trauma until you are ready. The more that you can share symptoms though, the better the treatment team can help find tools to manage and cope with symptoms. If they are not providing tools but just saying that’s normal for PTSD, you can ask, “yeah what do I do about it?”
Something else that sticks out: your comments about “exploding” about the cat and etc. Has anyone coached you through skills to manage that fight (part of the fight or flight) response? Part of what might make this easier is finding some ways to help the symptoms settle.
It’s good rhe therapist asked them to speed r up. But I’d still suggest making sure someone with the center knows how bad things are - it will help them find the right therapist quicker who can really focus on stabilizing symptoms more than this last one.
