Blocked Memory Triggers

[tillybee]

If your memory is blocked can something still trigger that blocked memory? And if so how are you to find the trigger if you can't remember?

I think this has alot to do with my nightmares and night time panic attacks. The subconcious mind.

I wake up with panic attacks every night covered head to toe with cold sweats. These got so bad that the Doctor actually tested me for lymphoma and leukeamia. Sometimes I can't connect the dots on why this happens.

I believe my night time attacks are purely due to me trying to stay in control during the day. Therefore as soon as I do relax it consumes me.

I was discussing this with another member earlier and I'd really like to have some of your insights on this - Thank you in advance

 

[Still waiting]

Could it be that you experienced trauma at night? I hate going to bed and have to force myself into bed...

 

[tillybee]

I suppose it could be this. Some of my trauma did happen at night and in the early hours. I feel safer sleeping in the day and rarely have a panic attack or nightmare when I sleep in the day.

 

[Still waiting]

I think our being is like an onion. As we peel the layers more information comes available...

 

[PureDogs]

There are times I would like to find out and other times I may not want to know due to fear to re-live.

With my understanding and what I learn it take while to get it break down.

For instance, one memory I had block for long time come out of blue in my memory without any trigger or stressors. I write it down and do self assessment.

This might be helpful to record any memory that seem oddly and affect your mood or memory.

Hope I'm making sense

 

[Still waiting]

Your making sense...

I totally get what your saying.

I still want to grab my mom and yell at her!!!!!!!!!

 

[PureDogs]

Still waiting,

Thank you.

As you stated you wish yell at your mother - may I ask how come?

Sometimes yelling may not helpful but other action might.

 

[Still waiting]

I have 95% of my childhood blocked. Bits n pieces strung out...when I did call my mom about 6 months ago and told her how I felt she replied, "why don't you grow up, grow a pair of balls, and go f*ck yourself".

 

[PureDogs]

Still waiting

Sounds like you don't have bond feeling with your mom? Maybe don't have is not right word - let's say. Challenging with connect and bond with your mom?

If yes, I can relate to that. My mom and I have challenge on bonding part even today - still struggle and my mom knows that.

 

[tillybee]

My mother is in total denial and my grandfather called me a slut. Aged 13 this was pretty tough. I went to live with my maternal grandma after that. Is part of this process unblocking or accepting that thise memories are blocked? And to heal them what do we do? Pass I'm lost

 

[Still waiting]

Still waiting

Sounds like you don't have bond feeling with your mom? Maybe don't have is not right word - let's say. Challenging with connect and bond with your mom?

If yes, I can relate to that. My mom and I have challenge on bonding part even today - still struggle and my mom knows that.

My mom and dad were....we'll lets just say "different". I don't recall bonding with my mom....

 

[Still waiting]

My mother is in total denial and my grandfather called me a slut. Aged 13 this was pretty tough. I went to live with my maternal grandma after that. Is part of this process unblocking or accepting that thise memories are blocked? And to heal them what do we do? Pass I'm lost

I think it can be both. As I go through my process I unravel more (shit). Give it time...