Bouts Of Screaming

[ResaLock]

I am not sure under what title to put this exactly.

I guess it could be under panic attacks. I know what panic attacks are. It just seems a little off from panic attacks. Being that I have had different experiences with what happens with panic attacks without screaming. So this is why I do not know where to put this. I thought of putting it under symptoms and other disorders. ..but I found this more fitting and closer.

The feeling comes over my whole body as though I have a horror movie in me being attacked by some horrid creature. The screaming experience is not like an average scream as one would from being attacked. I have had those experiences as well. This scream is more like an evil that has taken over my body and forces itself out like its being released bursting out from being captive. I know this idea seems like some demonic possession. ...but to be clear this is not what I am implying and I am not demon possessed.

This scream happens when I am triggered. It just forces and rushes out like a broken damn just burst. I feel it in my head, my face, my body and through my nerves. It hurts; like my body gets warm and feels shocked. I am in a complete nightmarish agony that I physically feel. The scream could last for about 2-3 min. and has lasted up to hours on lesser occasions til the point I actually lose my voice for a couple of days.

I believe it is a medical problem and has to do with damage to my brain and nervous system.

Does anyone experience this and does anyone know if it will always be like this and is there a treatment/healing or cure?

 

[atthree]

Sometimes when I am reflecting (forgiving) with a Sudoku puzzle, it triggers that anger you speak of. Demons I think not, but it did remind me of this

 

[ResaLock]

@atthree

Thanks for the video. Yea fitting. You actually had me laughing. All I could do was smile. I could actually picture me saying this to you, and you just burst out with energy like that and start singing that. LOL. Of course I'm not going to take it as a literal demon...but I can see the symbolic meaning of it.

I like Fleetwood mac. I haven't heard all their songs though, just single songs on the radio in the past. Stevie Knicks n' all.

 

[franciemarnie]

I only had that happen a couple times - and upon reflection - it was when the mounting unbearable tension within made its way out without my say so. Pretty terrifying. And it hurt my throat! Maybe 3X total - and not for over 25 years.