Can't Seem To Catch A Break

[Deleted member 541]

Im so sick of feeling like shit all the time. If it isn't one illness getting to me, it's another. I've pretty much known for about 6 months that a condition I used to have, but has been in remission, was coming back. It's not a bad condition, but just added to every or ther fricking contition that I have and I'm feeling pretty beat down.

Well, I saw my Nephrologist on Friday. He reviewed test that were done last month when I was sick with YET ANOTHER condition, and said he really wasn't worried at all and he didn't think that the Central Diabetes Insipidus was back. But he humored me and did more test. WELL! He called me about an hour ago, and ITS BACK!!!!

Still have to do another blood/kidney test tomorrow, and then a small thirst deprivation test later this week. Then he wil put me back on DDAVP to control it.

I'm just sick of being sick.

COPD
PTSD
FIBROMYALGIA
ARTHTITIS
REACTIVE ARTHRITUS
ALLERGIES
SILENT REFLUX
BARRETTS ESOPHOGUS
CHRONIC MIGRAINES
CARPEL TUNNEL In both wrists
PLANTAR FASCIITIS
BONE SPUR in my back
Along with back issues.

Yeah, ok. I'm whining... I'm just really sick of this shit and feel like I can't catch a break with my health. Plus I have to work and there are days that I litterally drag myself out of bed, in pain and have to go to work.

Just pissed and not in a great mood.

 

[Friday]

Boy oh boy, do I hear that. This entire year has just been can't win for losing, Yay! Let's pile on more stress and make PTSD reeeeeeally fun! :shifty: :D :O_o: :facepalm::banghead: In addition to all the motherf*cking aaaaaaaaargh that just keeps cropping up, and up, and up. My personal favorite being one that completely nixed / made impossible my single best coping mechanism. Yeah. Icing. On. The. Damn. Cake. Thanks, life! Good looking out! Glad you had my back on that one!

Seriously displeased.

Upside? I've come to realize that my whining (hate it), raging (grrr), bawlin (sniff), and generally for shite attitude about all of this nonsense? Which I also hate, because it only makes hard shit harder? LOL. Actually means I'm still fighting. Yes I'm venting, and griping, and periodically despairing... But I'm still moving. This is not how it ends, I am not giving up, I may be feeling sorry for myself, but dammit! Better is that way. And I'm hauling this broken drippy fall apart body with me, whether it wants to or not, come hell or high water.

<grin> Which is what I hear when I read your post. You're still swinging. Keep it up.

 

[Kailani]

So soorry to hear that the diabetes insipidous is back. remission is the hardest time with diagnosis! It is so stressful and glad you are writing out your frustration. You deserve to be frustrated! I agree with Friday that being ticked and angry about it is the sure sign of a fighter and hopefully later a victor! I know it feels like crap now. My heart goes out to you!!! The return of PTSD in new and unfun forms was a shocker and ticked me off too and it wears out practically every cell in the body! The good thing with this remission is that I've finally learned some tools to help breathe, ground, deal with and have some understanding support through it. Found out I have a lot to learn. Maybe if you could try to learn during the remission it will help. Hope you get the care you need and support!! Hope you are feeling better!