Crisis Counselor Just Told Me To Dissociate.

[FindingMyself88]

@gizmo Sometimes its about the pain, sometimes its punishment, sometimes it's just to feel something besides dissociation and panic. This is only the second episode of cutting since I started seeing this T, so maybe we will, I don't know. I just know I really need Tuesday to hurry up. I feel like right now she is my only support, aside from on here.

 

[joeylittle]

Just wanted to give you a suggestion for another option than cutting: cold shower. It's a major pain in the ass, but works for me where the smaller things don't. Medium-bad urge I'd stick my head under. Bad urge, just climb on in. I don't even bother taking off my clothes.

I've pretty much got myself re-wired now so that the cold water is right where my mind goes when I have the urge. And because I hate cold water so very, very much, I often don't even have to do it anymore; just the thought is enough.

 

[cupfish]

Dissociating scares the crap out of me because it's like being alive and dead at the same time. 'Comfortably Numb" by Pink Floyd plays in my head and I become nothing. I hate dissociating. Don't find any benefit in that state of being. It's one of the worst aspects of our chronic disease.