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Sufferer Denial, Now Acceptance

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So happy to have discovered this corner of the universe. Have worked through so much on my own due to triggers from therapy. But time seems to really help.
 
Welcome, @aut555 - glad you found us.

How is it that you came to be diagnosed...
Been through a journey of many things. But have suffered ptsd from a horrible 18 year marriage of being married to a bipolar individual with narrcistic undertones. Have suffered nightmares from child abuse among other things. Was date raped. Was in therapy awhile back, but therapy triggered to many memories of abusive marriage and l would flashback several days after session. Not sure if this was healthy. Have nightmares, wake up scared and stressed about perceived threat in dream. The other things l prefer not to divulge at this very public forum.
 
Of course, @aut555 - and I appreciate your sharing what you have. It's complicated, because the marriage - which sounds intensely difficult, I am not underplaying it at all - would generally not, on its own, be the qualifying trauma in a PTSD diagnosis. I'm very empathetic, having a lot of unmanaged mental illness in my own family history - I'm assuming that your soon to be ex wasn't effectively medicated - living with that is frightening, and the confusion of being gaslit would only make it that much worse.

You don't have to go into more detail, and I don't mean to be pressuring you. When navigating what sounds like a number of layers of trauma - the abuse as a child, the date rape - getting to the core of what the actual source of the PTSD is can be difficult to do.

Something that's true is that most people get worse when they start therapy. Just turning up those layers, doing it out loud, causes a symptom spike that can make it seem like talking is a very bad idea. And sometimes, it is - more often, though, the issue is that the therapist jumped the gun and didn't spend enough time working grounding skills. Or, the client accidentally stumbled into something that they thought they had 'dealt with' mentally, but in fact, had not.

Either way - I hope you consider approaching therapy again. And meanwhile, we've got bundles of threads on grounding skills that I'm sure you will find helpful, if not for right now, then sometime down the road.

Thanks for sharing. And, if you've not been formally diagnosed, that would probably be worth your time, at some point. It helps to get the right kind of treatment approach, and to not inadvertently focus on the wrong areas (if that makes sense).
 
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Welcome to the forum!

It's scary when the bad guys get psych degrees and such because all of those counseling classes teach them how to "break down" the client and they use these skills for nefarious reasons on their victims!
 
Of course, @aut555 - and I appreciate your sharing what you have. It's complica...
Sadly l read the ptsd qualifiers, and l identified and maybe inadvertently attempted something but l wish not to disclose it because l don't want that on my medical record or mentioned here.
 
How scary. You are so right. It made it so hard for me to struggle everyday. He doesn't want meds. He feels justified in treating me as such. It's very sad. But l am moving on in many ways.
 
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