Desperately need help

[Juice]

i suffered PTSD in the army and had a severe recurrence when my brother committed suicide in front of me. i have been unable to find work for 11 months and have been living off unemployment , borrowing from anybody i can and pawning all my materials. i just missed out on another job and i can hold it togther with the holidays coming. i take numerous benzos just to try to hod it together. last night i can close to overdosing. i have some family and friends but they just dont understnd. i am spiraling down quickly and dont know what todo

 

[Muttly]

It sounds like you are having a really hard time. I'm sorry you've gone through that. I hope you find support here. Folks here offer a lot of good advice.

Do you have a therapist?

 

[Juice]

no i dont have insurance so i dont have a therapist

 

[Madmaninabox]

I'm so sorry you have been through all of this.
could you go to the hospital? I know that sounds kinda horrible, and it is a hard thing to do. But That's what hospitals are for they can really help!!!
I went to a hospital for about 2 weeks, and it really helped. It can help you to get your medications right, and just give you a place to rest.
We're I live in don't think it matter if you have insurance you can get help at a hospital. I'm worried about you, if you go in and tell them your don't think you can keep yourself safe I don't believe they can send you away. I'm not sure though.
I really hope you start feeling better. If you need to talk this website is here i hope you can get some answers, or support you need.

 

[Friday]

VetCenters are free... and not affiliated with the VA (they can get records FROM the VA, but the VA can't ask for theirs) so there massively less red tape & f*ckery involved.

Vet Center Program Home

ETA ... While there are links on the page above, here are the direct links to veterans crisis chat, text, & line via the VA

Veterans Crisis Line | Suicide Prevention Hotline, Chat & Text

 

[Deleted member 44517]

Thank you for supplying that resource Friday. I was not aware of them.

 

[Freida]

I used the VA hotline and they were able to fast track me into a program for help. I was really surprised by how caring they were -- was NOT what I expected

 

[Juice]

did you go to a va hospital?

 

[JennaCaliforniaFires]

I can't afford therapy either so I talk to friends and come to forums like this. There is a lot of free support and many people want to help. I implore you to be careful and please don't overdose. My father committed suicide so I know about that first hand. I have PTSD and several traumas I have gone through. Many dark nights of the soul. I am not working, I stay inside in the dark, my friends can't fully understand and family isn't always there either. We care and we are with you in this. Please give us an update of how you are doing.

 

[Juice]

Thank you everyone for your support. I really was in a dark place. The VA has been contacting me daily. They fast tracked a appointment with psych / therapy and a social worker.
I still feel down but better then last week

Thanks again