Poll Do You Have Secrets About Your Trauma That You've Not Divulged To Your Therapist?

[Tinyflame]

I imagine Law photos that's a good thing- her question, because you likely never would have found the 'words' even themselves.
If you ever want to bring it up, now you can.

 

[jo may]

I don't feel safe enough to tell people everything, and I know thats bad but I feel people don't really understand it anyway.

 

[redflashlight]

I haven't told lots of things, because my therapist discouraged me from doing so. He is of the opinion that it would just upset me. Now I feel like I have so many secrets built up inside, that I feel the emotions would just totally overwhelm me. My day-to-day emotional stability is a hard fought for thing. I'm afraid I'd go nuts if I let my secrets out.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

No secrets. I am an open book (to a fault!) Not to say I've shared EVERYTHING! That would take too long... But no, I don't hide anything as I'm a very bad liar and can't hide deception to save my soul...

 

[Anna]

I have many things I never told my therapist. I was only there for just over one year, and she figuered me out pretty well being a professional and all.... I broke off the therapy due to pride and because she found out something I thought I had kept well hidden. I regret breaking it off, and it is so hard to get back into therapy. She helped me a lot but there are still a lot she did not know.

 

[Helliepig]

With my therapist I can tell her anything. And what a relief. I am determined to make this work for me and to become healed and integrated, so this is for me to bottom anything wierd or odd that occurs to me or I think about. What's the point in hiding stuff, I've been hiding all my life. Time to clean out ALL the dark corners and not let go until the shadows lift. It has been very very difficult and painful to do this but so worth it. Trust doesn't really come into this so much as grabbing my opportunity and making the best damn use of it I can. Helps that she's a great person.

 

[Deimos]

There are a few things I have kept from my T. One of which I almost feel like if I ever openly admit it, I loose my connection to humanity. My trauma lasted over two years and it consumed me. It was a situation that I had to emotionally detach to survive. From the time I woke to the time I went to sleep (if I could) I had to be on guard.

I have found in my 10 months of therapy that there is a lot my mind had blocked. I find I downgrade events by comparing my experience to others that were there with me. I'm sure as the cats continue to come out of the bag, I will divulge more to my T. Of the things I keep from her, I think I keep them from myself. With the exception of one event which when I think of it, it always is in the third person.

 

[VDWngr1355]

I said yes, but I have only been in therapy for two and a half months. Two sessions ago I can in with a time line of the trauma that lasted for 6 years and put most stuff on there and gave it to my T. I felt like I nearly had a heart attack handing it over but knew it needed to be done. I left off some stuff there because as Deimos said, "loose my connection to humanity". But I do feel like I will be able to bring it up in the future or I know it will come up in session.

 

[NIKI]

Yes, I do have a secret that I won't ever tell.

 

[Marine/w/PTSD]

It's not a secret but every therapist finds out that I hate them

 

[ifonly]

Great question. I answered "No" but that's b/c I don't hold secrets from the therapist I'm currently seeing. I *have* held secrets from others tho. Over 30yrs I've seen 11 therapists primarily b/c I've moved around a lot with work. There was not a lot of consistency but the longest I was able to see anyone was about 18mos once/wk.

I've been seeing my current T for 9mos. I chose to tell her everything b/c I want this to be my last hurrah. The last time (hopefully) that I'll need to be in therapy. So for it to work, I felt it only fair to tell her everything; warts, guts and all. It hurts. A lot. And it is awfully scary at times...but if I don't fess up then I am the one who will lose out in the long run. And I want to conquer this stuff.

I realised that maybe I kept going round & round the Therapists Revolving Door because I kept secrets from all those who went before the current? I don't know.

That made me decide to tell her everything no matter how awful it was b/c I know that more I invest in T, the more I ultimately will gain. ie: I get to live the life I want to live - not the life that ptsd makes me live :)

 

[ifonly]

Yes, I do have some secrets from my therapist. Basically my SH tendencies.
But my biggest secret from her is my O/D's.

It took me a few months to be able to say the odd thing here & there about my SH & several other things. I test drove my T to see how she responded to little bits of information, one small piece at a time. After 3mos, her responses toward me never altered & I came to trust in her consistency. She showed me that she wasn't going to treat me any differently no matter what I told her. From that point on, I started to tell her more & more things. :)