Does it ever go away?

[FauxLiz]

I have lived, tried to die, prayed for death and held on for dear life. That is what I seem to be doing right now. I leave in less than two weeks for River Oaks so I don't want to screw it up by giving in to the pain, sadness, memories, flashbacks and all around depression.

I am trying to believe that I will be better after inpatient. I guess I just wonder if the depression and suicidal ideation will be a constant companion or can I shake that unwanted friend.

 

[Deleted member 541]

It takes time, but the more that you work on your trauma, and rip each and every aspect of it apart things will get better. Hang in there....

 

[ladee]

It does change... we change, our brains change, and things do get better... none of us want to hear that it takes time... but you are hanging in there and giving your self a chance with inpatient treatment... Hope it helps, and you feel some shifts of things, and are able to not be so depressed and hurting.... it does change... hang in here... we got your back !!

 

[FauxLiz]

Thank you @She Cat and @ladee I understand that things take time and I really want them to change I just am taking things a day at a time for awhile.

 

[Joan]

For me inpatient was a turning point. It did not make it all go away by any means and sometimes I still struggle with why I am living and why not just end it....but I have much better skills to pull myself out and overall life is better. I hope that River Oaks is a good experience for you.