Dreams I'm having

[BlueWeepingRose]

Inside my dreams, I'm always yelling and full of anger. I'm not usually like this at all, nor am I the kind of person to yell at anyone and I'm hardly ever angry. Inside my dreams however, I'm angry at everyone who I'm speaking with and I'm full of rage and anger. It could be that deep down inside, I'm still angry about how I was treated by my abusive ex, because I never once stood up for myself. I always remained quiet during all of his put down's and when he yelled at me. I was simply afraid to yell back at him or fight because "it was always my fault" in the end or told me it was fault when I did absolutely nothing.

I guess it's just me simply healing from everything from the scars he left on me since I left him last year in November. It's been a long process to get where I am now. Lately I've been keeping myself busy a lot. However anytime I go to sleep, I always have these type of dreams where I'm full of anger. Does anyone else have dreams like this??

 

[piratelady]

I always remained quiet during all of his put down's and when he yelled at me. I was simply afraid to yell back at him or fight because "it was always my fault" in the end or told me it was fault when I did absolutely nothing.

I was the same way when I was married to my ex. I believed every thing he said, I beleived it was my fault and so I simply took it, believing I deserved it. Also, I knew if I fought back, if I got angry, that it would just make it worse.

After I left him, I never did get angry at him. I went through a period where I was afraid still. But never angry. I'm not angry at any of my past abusers. Just people that I think could have done something to prevent it. Part of me feels like I should be angry though. I just can't get there.

My dreams are full of fear. Reliving what I went through, but with the fear I felt magnified. I think it would be interesting to have a dream where I felt angry. Maybe my brain could show me what that would look like.

Maybe your mind is trying to show you that it's ok to be angry? It's hard to really say. How do the dreams make you feel? Like the thought of being angry, does that bring on feelings of guilt? Relief?

 

[BlueWeepingRose]

I was the same way when I was married to my ex. I believed every thing he said, I beleived it was my fault and so I simply took it, believing I deserved it. Also, I knew if I fought back, if I got angry, that it would just make it worse.

After I left him, I never did get angry at him. I went through a period where I was afraid still. But never angry. I'm not angry at any of my past abusers. Just people that I think could have done something to prevent it. Part of me feels like I should be angry though. I just can't get there.

My dreams are full of fear. Reliving what I went through, but with the fear I felt magnified. I think it would be interesting to have a dream where I felt angry. Maybe my brain could show me what that would look like.

Maybe your mind is trying to show you that it's ok to be angry? It's hard to really say. How do the dreams make you feel? Like the thought of being angry, does that bring on feelings of guilt? Relief?

Yes, I think this makes perfect sense. For the longest time I sort of kept all of my feeling's inside about the abuse because I feared what people would think of me and judge me about what happened to me. It's sort of hard sometimes for me to come up and say how I feel since I sort of keep things to myself. I'm not the best when it comes to my feelings, since my feelings sort of get overwhelming. This dream explains a lot to me about how I felt during the time I was being abused.

Anytime these dreams come up, it takes me back and I remember how I felt when I was being talked too and abused, than later I was told that I was "way too sensitive" I feel a lot of relief knowing that I'm not alone. At the time I was feeling very much alone and I felt isolated since I wasn't allowed to speak to anyone because I believe he feared I would open up to someone about it eventually. Overtime I grew tired of his ways and finally stood up for myself. When he knew I wouldn't tolerate it any longer, that's when he found a new victim. So all of these dreams make perfect sense and the reason why I'm having them.