Driving in snow

[weaving cowboy]

hi. I have not posted here in Forever. I was doing very well and thought that my PTSD was in remission. However I am having anxiety attacks. I am a church organist and have to drive about 30 miles each way to and from church. The weather man are predicting snow on Christmas Eve when I have to drive.they can't say how much snow yet but they are getting excited about the idea of a white Christmas. Yesterday I was compulsively searching every website local and National to see what kind of driving conditions there will be on Christmas Eve.I am trying I need help 2 allow myself to be more com going into this. I have to drive. I can't just take the evening off.

 

[Never_falter2]

Is there somebody who could drive you?

 

[Friday]

Forewarned is forearmed, yes?

Leave a few hours early & bring gear to sleep over at the church / breakfast in the morning... in case driving back isn't a good idea?

And if you get snowed in? You get snowed in. Priest makes a brief announcement that you've been snowed in & a bunch of people get to attempt to play, or the choir sings accapella, and all is well.

 

[weaving cowboy]

Yes. I agree with you. Somehow I feel like I'm a failure if I am not there. And the idea of me being stuck there on Christmas eve with my wife and kids without me makes me want to cry. I've been an organist for 34 years. I love my church. But I'm living in fear. I'm yelling at the kids. My heart is racing, and I'm afraid I am going to ruin Christmas for my family. Fortunately tomorrow morning is supposed to be snowy here so I will have practice driving in snow. What is going on with me? Why am I letting anxiety get the better of me? This doesn't happen on a Tuesday morning in February. Mostly just Christmas. I am trying to go deep inside of me and find out what is really going on.

 

[Deleted member 541]

We have a snow/ice storm hitting today into tomorrow. I have an important Dr appointment today, but will need to travel 25 miles to get there and then drive home. I hate driving in the snow, but with the amount of pain I’m in, I’ve got to get there. So, I totally understand how you feel!!!!