Drunk, But I Reached Out

[Chava]

I'm having a f*cking weird time. A colleague-friend (I consider nobody to be a close friend) "liked" a picture I shared on Facebook. I sent a message since she appeared to be awake past midnight, asking if she was awake and if I could call. She ended up calling me. I've been sober 21 years but drank second time in a week. She's knows I'm in AA but we talked a bit about sadness and developmental trauma (easier when drunk, eh?). I need to stop. I hope my "second" sobriety is one of knowing how to reach out better and finding a higher power concept that makes sense to me...so I don't feel so ungrounded in void. We talked about panic and I told her about my mom breaking a door against my back. We've been friends for a few years, but I'm close to nobody. I thankd her a coupl times for listening. I feel good about sharing that, evn if I'm drunk.

I'm sorry I'm drunk. I'm disappointed and will regret it tomorrow. I know I need to work on stuff and ask for help.

 

[Chava]

going to bed I'm horrible.

 

[mrsps]

Im glad to hear that you had someone to talk to. Get some sleep and tomorrow is a fresh new day to start over. You may have had a couple of slip ups but you are strong enough to get past them and not need alcohol. Alcohol will not rule your life, you wont let it!
Wishing you a better day tomorrow :)

 

[Casey_03]

@Chava I am with you, have also been drinking lately, and I never even made it to a full year sober. I have done the drunken reaching out thing. You may regret it in the morning but I believe we do it when it becomes necessary. I guess we just have to learn to do it without the alcohol.