Ever Feel A Wall Between You and "Other People"?

[angel2write]

Ditto on the social anxiety, avoidance, and racing thoughts. I've never been able to understand how social situations are calming to people, because they are such a big deal for me.

Yeah- can you believe that some people actually go to crowded parties with loud music and lots of drinking and dancing and think it's fun?!? And they call us weird.

I find them so draining, and when I come home my mind often buzzes for hours rehashing what happened. I find myself wondering all the time if they can tell I'm messed up... It's just so strange because I berate myself for being so worried about coming across normal, if that makes any sense?

It does make sense. I do it all the time. I feel like I'm caught in a trap. The harder I try to act normal the more I realize what a total act it is, and the more I mess it up! But then, if I don't try to act normal, things get really strange.

I have a really hard time leaving social situations. A lot of times I kind of get through the event on adrenaline, and I think I'm acting ok until I get in the car on the way home. Then I'm, like, hitting my fists against the door and roof of the car and yelling, "How could you be so stupid!" at myself. My husband says I over-analyze every little word and gesture and that I should relax. I don't think, short of him bringing a tranquilizer gun in his pocket, that the relaxing thing is going to happen any time soon.

 

[Flashlight14]

I have a really hard time leaving social situations. A lot of times I kind of get through the event on adrenaline, and I think I'm acting ok until I get in the car on the way home. Then I'm, like, hitting my fists against the door and roof of the car and yelling, "How could you be so stupid!" at myself. My husband says I over-analyze every little word and gesture and that I should relax. I don't think, short of him bringing a tranquilizer gun in his pocket, that the relaxing thing is going to happen any time soon.

I'm reading over this, laughing at nearly every post, thinking, "YEP! That's me! Yep, that's me too!"

It sucks knowing that we all deal with this and seeing how much it effects our lives. But it's a relief to know that I'm not the only one that struggles in social situations.

Thank you all for posting!