f*cked Up Again

[Jnean]

yesterday i had a panic attack, I broke down and over medicated. Feeling so tired today from it, and I feel like I want to sleep for days now cuz I'm also upset about it. I took three atavans that I had stashed away that i dont even have a script for anymore and a double dose of clonapin. Plus later my regular dose of seroquil. Why do I do it

 

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You do it because you are scared, your brain is a primal state of being during a panic attack and all it cares about is stopping the panic and perceived danger around it so you do what you know works. It's a very basic and primal reaction!

Do you have any coping skills to use during panic attacks such as grounding or breathing exercises? Nothing will calm you down as fast as medication but sometimes taking the stress down from a 10 to a 9 can be all you need to make it through the panic attack without slipping up. One thing that works for me is going through my senses and saying things I see, smell, hear, feel etc. For example "the wall is white, the floor is cold, i hear a fan etc." It has really helped me ground myself in panic attacks.

I know where you've been though. I used to be addicted to Klonopin and Xanax and would over medicate all the time. It's such such a hard thing to overcome but I know you can do it! I use weed fairly often now and if that's legal in your state I really recommend giving it a try! It chills you out without all the nasty side effects.

Best of luck to you!

 

[Jnean]

thank you so much for being helpful. I feel like I'm so good with my panic attacks with my grounding but for some reason I just couldn't couldn't deal. Thanks it's good to hear I can do this when for some reason I can't hear myself.

 

[EveHarrington]

I would take more of my Ativan than needed so that my mind could take a break. I took it too far and it's best to not have the medication around. I know my doctor wants me to have it on hand though because he's concerned that I let things get bad without seeking relief that could curb the out of control anxiety.

 

[Jnean]

makes sense to me and I haven't over medicated or took anything that's not my own script in over two months so now I really have to try all over.

 

[Heather]

@Jnean I can totally relate to where you are at. Lately things have been so hard....there have been nights that I've taken 2mg klonopin, 100 mg trazadone and 2 melatonin....just to get to sleep.

I wake up in the morning feel groggy and out of it.

Anxiety is so high, it's the only way I can get to sleep.

Hugs for what you are going through.

 

[Jnean]

hugs back thank you