Feeling Nervous About Doing Emdr

[Deleted member 12723]

Eleanor- good luck on the emdr. I hope it has some excellent results for you. Along time ago I went to a seminar and I heard if the supporter is a sympathetic witness to the sufferer, It is as if it happened to the supporter too.

I'm glad you have your own therapist. Good job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you for being you. You are amazing, I have never seen such a encouraging person before. You always zero in on the successes. So I hope you will zero in on yourown successes. Hug. WTG for you. Doing a happy dance for you on my keyboard.:cool:

 

[ChipC]

I've done emdr and if anything it was soothing. Even though there was trauma with regard to the topics the therapist kept it a safe comfortable experience. Good luck.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

thank you ChipC. I really appreciate you popping in to tell me that, I am still feeling a little nervous, but your words comforted me and Ireally needed them alot. I am glad it was soothing, I am so hoping it is soothing for me, that would be wonderful

I have a week to go, and I am having a rough day today, so your words made my day. they really helped out alot.

I am really hoping this is a good experience for me. I hope it takes away the anxiety I feel. I do not know what the root cause of my anxiety is. I hate and loathe anxiety, and I guess that does'nt help me get in touch with what is ailing me. I really appreciate your honest words. Take care.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling scared again. I have to take my fears with me. Even though all of you have been so very helpful, validating, encouraging and wise, I still have these fears. That is the first thing I have to do when I go in on Monday morning. I think having my mind being tweaked is a big trigger for me.

My fear goes into anxiety. it feels like a out of control experience. The therapist is familiar with dr. Shapiro, so this gives me a measure of hope.

I was freaking out because of some medical tests that we had to do for my husband and we ended up going home early and not having to go for the second day. I was freaking out for nothing. It turned out far better than I expected. I was dreading it. This is how I feel about the emdr. I am freaking out. I will have to fight for me. I will have to go slow and if I feel uncomfortable, I will stop and work on that. I can do that. I do not know what the underlying root cause of my fear is. I feel like Pandora who opened the box and let all of the demons out and she closed the lid and trapped hope inside. She had to open the box one more time to let hope out.

I am just venting now and getting it all out of me. I have my granddaughter with me this weekend and it is a joy to have her here. I will drop her off on Sunday evening. Then I will have to wait for the appointment.

I will stop things if I get too uncomfortable. I think my inner child is very scared. I have not been able to protect myself very good in the past, but I have been doing better. I do not think my inner child trusts me to look out for her best interests. I hope this makes sense.

I am also what iffing myself which is a bad thing. I am horrablizing too. I am being negative, will have to start the 14 day challenge all over again. Thanks for listening.

I am enough. If I feel uncomfortable I will stop it. I will have to go really slow with the therapist. I am having a hard time with the anxiety. It is the underlying fears. I am nervous and afraid. I know courage is being terrified and going forward anyway, but I am so tempted to just cancel it. I will do this.

Your help and support and encouragement have meant the world to me. I keep reading over the responses and I am listening to the cautions and warnings. thank you.

 

[piratelady]

I have confidence that your EMDR appointment will be ok. I would suggest sharing your concerns with your therapist before starting so she knows you need to take things slowly. (Hugs)

 

[Nicolette]

Not long to go now Gizmo. Just remember no amount of worry will change anything so just take all the support of those here with you and don't think too much about what you are going for as you don't really know. What will be will be so don't let those evil thoughts make it worse for you - if you can stay open minded you will probably gain more than having your mind swirling with thoughts of 'What if'. I know it is easier said than done but I believe in you.

 

[Hashi]

I agree with piratelady, I think it would be a good idea to talk about how you're feeling with your therapist - everything that's coming up for you, the fear, the anxiety, the what-ifs. This is all part of the process, not something separate from it. It's all connected, and it all needs healing.

Maybe writing down your concerns and feelings ready to go through them with your T could help you contain them. You can know they've been noted and won't go unheard. So you wouldn't be suppressing them to then try to put them to one side and focus on something else (if you can do that, even a little bit).

Sending you good wishes.

 

[shell]

Good luck Gizmo

 

[Red Feather]

Sending you lots of love. You are being brave and I will be thinking of you.

 

[Eleanor]

I believe in you too gizmo! Hugs and love go along with you on your journey...

 

[Chondra]

Gizmo, if it helps, try to remember/know that fear and anxiety are part of PTSD. They warp our perspective. Also, EMDR is going to reduce them. It may take time, but that is the goal. ;)

 

[Let It Be]

Here's some more support for you and some :):):)!!