Feeling Nervous About Doing Emdr

[Deleted member 12723]

Thank you guys so very much. I will make another list and list my questions. I am doing so much better today. I think the combination of getting it out and getting such good support back really helps me. It helped me in overcoming a driving phobia. I will have to drive myself and drive to the clinic to pick up prescriptions for me and for my husband. Then I will go and get us some mocha frappes afterward for a treat. I will let you all know how it went. I think I will use this thread like I used the one for anxiety and driving.

I think she will call and make my next appointment for me. I wonder if I am making a big deal out of nothing. I get a big dread of things that I am not looking forward to. I really appreciate you believing in me. I have alot of sympathetic witnesses. I need to have an open mind. I am trying not to worry. I really am.

Mabe, hopefully I will be calm tommorow. It is really hot today. I am trying to stay cool thanks again so much. Hugs to all of you.

 

[Venusian]

((Gizmo)) I hope all goes well today. Just remember that if things start to to feel like they are becoming overwhelming you can stop and have a break. EMDR is also about talking about what is coming up for you and taking it as slowly as you want. I'll be thinking of you today.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Thanks Venusian, I will take your words with me. I know it will be ok. I like the therapist. It is much better now. I have been writing about my fears and they are dissapating. Thank you very much again Hugs.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Today turned out to be a wonderful first session. We worked on a lower scale memory. It ended up being more traumatic than I remember. Alot of real memories came up and I have a new self confidence that I am more than enough to handle anything that comes my way. I love the therapist. she is so gentle and soothing and kind. It was alot of memories that came up. It took alot of my anxiety a way. I have a new self confidence that I am up to any challenge, and if I survived that memory, I am enough to handle what life throws my way.

It was very soothing. I have grounding techniques to do at home if any thing traumatic comes up.

I have another appointment next Friday at 11:30pm. I am glad I do not have to wait a month. i really love this therapist. She is really good and she knows what she is doing. I am really happy. Now I have done it and know what to expect. No headache, but I am feeling tired and my shoulders ache.

She said I was a good candidate for it. I really liked it . It is opeining a treasure chest and getting treasure out of it. Oh I am so thankful to all of you for the help, support, hope, and encouragement. Now I know what to expect. I am so glad I did this. I am worth making this commitment to. Really wonderful healing experience.

I treated myself afterward and came home. I did'nt have anxiety driving today either. It is the fear of the unkown that triggered me. Thank you for all of the help and support. I think I will take a nap in a little while. I feel kind of tired. EMDR was really easy.

 

[Red Feather]

Yay!!!!:D

 

[maddog]

Well done Gizmo, sounds like a ringing endorsement for the process, and a big congratulations to you as well.

Maddog

 

[Eleanor]

HURRAY!!! I am so glad it went well. It IS tiring processing old stuff. Rest well, my friend:tup: Super job.
You are awesome.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Thank you Maddog and Eleasnor. I am having a good day. I slept well last night, no nightmares, and no new memories surfacing. I hope the emdr continues to be this positive. All of that fear over nothing. It worked out just great. I am really looking forward to my next session. Anyways, thank you both for the kind words and support, I appreciate it alot.

 

[louise15]

Hi Gizmo

I don't know much about Emdr, but my advice would be follow your gut, trust in yourself I'm sure you will get there, anxiety sucks but it can be reduced, luckily I have a fantastic T, and my anxiety level is coming down slowly.

One day at a time x

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Thank you louise15. Thanks for the reminder about one day at a time and trusting my gut. It is always telling me the real truth. But my therapist said if it gets to be too much we will stop and ground me, before going on.

 

[louise15]

Sure you'll be fine, brill you are having a good day
Take care x

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I have my 2nd session tommorow. I have been having dreams, and they have not been very good. I remember fragments of them. They make me tired. I have not had the infamous headache yet. I get to go and pick up a prescription afterwards again. We are starting with the memories that aren't as bad as the bad ones.

I am feeling alittle nervous. But it will be ok. I have had so much support and I think it has helped tremendously. I am not the only person doing emdr. It is good to be going through it with others. It does help. I found out I get 12 sessions, and if I need more time I may get a few extra sessions.

The sense of empowerment I feel is amazing. It really works. I am just checking in and recording this experience like a journal of sorts. I have done this with another thread and it took a driving phobia away.

Full speed ahead. I am going for it. Thanks to all of the people who have supported me through this.