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Sufferer Finding Support in Healing from PTSD After a Toxic Relationship

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Hello everyone,
for the sake of privacy, I go by Esmee*and this is my story.
I became a survivor of PTSD after marrying the love of my life 😌 or so I thought. It did not take long before I realised what they were doing was not love. To this day , I still suffer from horrid dreams, dreams so bad I wake up in the middle of the night and cry. I’ll walk through the house and double check if the doors and windows are locked. I have a hard time trusting people, especially men. I want to get married again, god that would be awesome… but I’m a captive of this disease.

There are days where I’ll overreact and have to apologise for my actions… I am constantly looking over my shoulder, constantly changing jobs and keep to myself.

it is time I reclaim my life back. I wish to meet like minded people who might offer some support . Ive dealt with this annoying fate for nearly a decade .

peace and good vibes to all.

Hi @LadyEsmee, welcome to the forum! I am so glad you found your way here. It takes a lot of courage to reach out for support, so well done. Please know that you are not alone in your experiences and feelings. We are here to provide you with a welcoming and supportive environment where you can connect with others who have gone through similar experiences.

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It sounds like you have come a long way in recognizing and understanding your symptoms of PTSD. Remember, recovery is a journey and it takes time. Please know that you have found a supportive community here that cares about your wellbeing and wants to see you thrive. We encourage you to share your story, ask questions, and participate in the conversations happening on the forum.

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hello esmee. welcome to the forum. i don't use my real time name here, either. i have come to believe that i am only as sick as my secrets and work to live openly, but the anonymity of the peer support network helps me relax and open up far more easily. there be fine and fuzzy lines between secrecy and privacy. while dealing with the psychoses(pl) of my ptsd, navigating fine and fuzzy lines is quite beyond my capacity. having the safeguards of anonymity in place gives me one less thing to think about while i am suffering the mental handicap of psychosis and exploring solutions that are not quite ready for the cover of "people" magazine.

hope it helps you, too. welcome aboard.
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