Freaking Out Over The Holidays

[seedling]

The holidays encompass the trauma anniversary now and this will be the first one. I started dreaming about Christmas decorations in August. The day of the anniversary is actually a few weeks before Christmas, coming up fast now. Am trying not to think about it but it feels like darkness is descending. My tension levels are constantly high.

Will try to keep it simple and see how it goes. We usually have it simple anyway. Last year the actual day of Christmas was sweet. Our son was alive and we were together. Had a few things to open and the neighbors put up a tree for us. I think when I get to the actual day it will seem OK.

 

[Jawn]

I am wondering how my wife will want to handle Christmas this year, but I haven't asked yet. I think I will do that AFTER the Thanksgiving holiday is over. Get through one before asking about the other one.

Yeah, once Halloween is over here, the trucks start rolling with loads of Christmas trees headed for other parts of the world or USA. We produce a lot of those trees here in the Pacific NorthWest. On my way to work I passed several trucks heading out and saw crews working in the fields cutting and wrapping trees. Another week or 2 and they will start loading with helicopters when the pace/demand picks up.

I guess I need to decide if I am going to do anything at the house this year or not. Not much point if it is just me there, but I guess I will figure that out over the next couple of weeks.

Jawn

 

[Tinyflame]

Yes Jawn, I seriously wouldn't bring it up, it's not like she doesn't know it's coming, and for most people it's added stress (even positive stress). You'll know when the time is right.