General Anexiety Driving Me Crazy

[boondockbabe]

I have got to drive fifty miles into Springfield tomorrow so I can take my T.A.B.E. test tomorrow. This is basically a Pre-GED test. I have to get my GED so I can get enrolled into college classes. I am having some serious anexiety. I will have to drive into town at rush hour :eek:. I hate driving with tons of cars around me and to top it off the truck is in the shop so I will have to take my husband's tiny little focus. I feel like I'm in a Go-kart when I drive that thing. I'm considering taking a xanax before I leave to help stave off any attacks but I don't want to mess up my mind 'cause I have to pass this test. I HAVE to. If I dont, I don't think I will be able to get enrolled untill next year and I really want to not loose any momentum. I'm worrying about everything, I spent half the night crunching for this test and most of today already today. I have that feeling like shit's gonna hit the fan any moment. Logically, I know this is just anexiety and it is nothing "real" but man it sure wears me out. I'm worried about everything. I'm trying really hard not to have to think about all the people. I hate big groups of people. I just can't possibly be prepared for every situation that might come my way. I was hoping that posting this might get it out of my system. It's helping a little. I HAVE to do this. I will not give up. I am going to school if it drives me crazy- which seems a fairly realistic possibility at this point.. I have to get on with my life. I must move on. I must continue to live. I'm just gonna keep telling myself that. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest guys.

 

[BigBear]

How about going a couple of hours early. Hang out at Mc D for a while or where is quiet and calm for you.

Bear

 

[boondockbabe]

My husband and I talked about that. I'll have to drop him off at work at 5am and I could just drive to town then. Now, I live in the country so this might sound weird, but, How do you kill time in the city and not have to surround yourself with people. Are parks in the city safe? I sooo look like somthing to take advantage of. I'm 5'7" and 120lbs and kinda cute- I always feel like I'm walking around with a huge target on me. Small, unarmed girl, perfect target. better go to micky D's.

 

[OKRADLAK]

Is there a nice coffee shop? I would get tanked on tea and bread from Panera's or something! Hee

 

[BigBear]

Hey, if it's a big enough city, reading a book in a hotel lobby has been a quiet place for me sometimes... The library usually isn't open yet.

Bear

 

[Reclusive]

Bring a book or something to work on so people don't approach you. For the most part, the parks should be okay during the daylight hours - night time, I don't know, I'd have to be familiar with the area. You could always find the awkward seat in the cafe - there's always one that's positioned kind of weird and not easy to get to. Hotel is a really great idea - maybe you can even go out to the pull and put your feet in! I dunno, could be nice. Mmmmm... if the test is at a campus, you could find a quiet place on campus to read and wait. I'm sure you'll think of something!

 

[Reclusive]

Okay, so I just realized you wrote this Thursday and won't see it until Saturday (which it is) so I hope it went well for you! I'm sure you nailed the test. :D