Has Anyone Else Been Angry With God?

[LuckiLee]

Interesting thread.

My guy and I discuss this quite often. And what we believe is that God didn't let these horrible events happen. But in fact the Devil made them happen. God wasn't even there so we can't blame Him.

✌ & ❤

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Wow what can I share that has not already been said? I respect everyone's beliefs and their reasons for believing what they do.

My dad was an atheist and my mom a ex catholic because they were not married in the church and we used to go churches on the airbases but quit that pretty soon, I guess because of my dad.

So I always had a sort of belief in God. I remember when I was in the fourth grade I had gone with my brother to a vacation bible school and got a pamphlet and read a story about a little boy in the hospital who wanted to die and he was told by a nurse that if he propped up his arm during the night God would come and take him to heaven and the next day he was dead. I know.

Anyway I got the idea that I could go to heaven that way too and propped up my arm but sadly the next day, I was still there and I thought that I was a very bad person who could not get into heaven.

No I never got angry at angry yet at God and I have asked him is there something wrong with me because I have not gotten angry with him? No answer yet. Be careful what I ask.

I was in a church in the mountain community of a small town and the pastor and the elders turned a healing prayer for me into an exorcism. The pastor and his wife told so many people and got some guy that wrote a book that wanted to do another one on me and I refused.

I ended up canceling my membership in that church because of the gossip that was so rampant and one of the elders told my friend that had a miscarriage it was because she was friends with me.

I hated those people. I did not understand what was happening to me and to my family. The gossip became so ugly and viscious and cruel. I ended up being shamed by the only people in the community that I thought were my friends.

I am happy to report that the pastor of that church was driven out two years later by the same church! I prayed for two years for justice from God and that evil man will never be able to pastor another church! Sadly the same elders in the church, remained so my family and my time there in that narrow minded community lasted until finally we could move away from there.

I started my rebellious phase then but I did open the bible to see just what it said and if they were right because I think if I found that I would have quit believing in God. But I was amazed at what I learned. I so hated those people. I know that they have free will and are very bad hypocritical people making bad choices that ruined my reputation and did so damage to me and to my family, my own two children were accused of worshipping the devil.

My belief turned into real faith and I understand now that the pamphlet I read in the fourth grade was a damned lie. But I have been so lied to and deceived all of my life until now.

I have tried a few times to go to another church but I think God meant for me to make a break with organized religion which I do not believe in. I cannot sit in any church without being very triggered and it stirs up so me that the antidote for me is not to go. So I have Gods love and relationship with out a group of people and the truth is that the forum is my church now. I do not think it this is against God but I have received so much love and compassion and real help in the forum. Sorry anthony.

I have more to say but I will not share it here. I love God and Jesus. They could not help me either time because I had been surrounded by my evil parents and the cult like church.

So he gave me my true faith. But like I said, there may come a time when I might get angry depending on how bad it is and trust me I have been living in hell all of my life with times of real love and joy in my life. Thank you for this thread.

 

[saraemerald]

I am angry at a God because he allowed me to endure way too much. And if he's really all powerful, why hasn't he stepped in throughout all humankind's history. Why do abusers and psychopaths get away with bo much while their victims have to spend years healing.
I used to have strong faith and now I have some big hangups.
Also, many religions and faiths restrict your life way too much and take advantage of people and their lives. Some are cults.
Yeah,if there is a God, I am currently very disheartened and very angry with him

 

[420kitty]

No reason to be angry at something that doesn't exist.

 

[SophiaWisdom]

Sometimes you have to burn the very bridge you're standing on, just to show others that you're serious about being true to yourself.

This is awesome. So very awesome. I must write it down.

And I don't believe these healings were...coincidences...or random personal luck...No. Why? Because of His timing after my prayers, and how the horrible things that occurred in my life...have now been turned into some of my greatest lessons, healings, and transitions now...in my present-day life.

Wow. I so needed your message tonight. This was like my own personal sermon. Preach on!

I cursed God like a sailor...yet I did not stop asking Him to heal my mind, body, and spirit...

YES! same

This past Thanksgiving I chose to spend it alone. I did not want to be with someone else's family

I am in awe and admiration. Thanksgiving, Xmas, New Year's are terrifying times for me - I fear being alone on those days and being reminded of how rejected I've been by family and the world alike. How much of an orphan I am in this world. If I could get to this place as you have - that would be true peace.

whom He wants me to become...not who the world says I am...Lies, all lies.

So powerful.

now I have some big hangups.

I don't mean to give unsolicited advice so please discard if not useful - have you heard of or been involved with Celebrate Recovery? I think it's a great program.

@Rain I too was sucked in by a cult-like church. They were the ones that converted me, so it's all very complicated still and I'm sorting out my feelings every day. I remained a Christian even after escaping them, but I am very angry at the abuses the church covers up right and left. It feels so unbelievably difficult to change such an overwhelming tide and to make any progress in this arena...

I always say I'm a believer DESPITE other Christians :)

 

[Gamereign555]

Yes I was going through a period of anxiety and panic attacks while trying a medication new to me. I suffered yet more increasing panic. I could not breathe.

I practiced what my trauma therapist suggested: Do some running. Try some cleaning around the house.

I was a mess emotionally. I couldn’t hold it together and was flooded with episodes of dissociative hallucinations while crying and ramped up hyperventilation and hyper awareness.

I gave up running because my heart felt like it would burst, my chest was so tight. I couldn’t clean anymore because I couldn’t focus at all. I was too disoriented to stand and way to uncomfortable to sit.

I recall shouting “What God does this to somebody?”. I renounced God.

My ex-girlfriend got me to lay down on the bed and I put an arm around her waist as she read to me. I focused her words and not my breathing and fell asleep.

 

[Changing4Best]

I went through a period where I was very angry with God. I'm a Christian and thought it was sacrilegious t...

I don't know if I could call what I felt really as anger, but I was upset with God, I think, for awhile, for letting certain things happen to me. Though I had previously been in love with God, I kind of ignored Him for awhile and did things "my way." Of course, my life got more messed up yet, so I went back to God now with my proverbial "tail between my legs."

I believe that God knows what is best for me. If He allows something bad to happen to me, it is not a punishment or anything like that. It is something that because he allows others to have free will, (and me too) then they do commit sins against themselves, me and others. I commit sins too. Sometimes realizing I am doing so and sometimes not. There are paradoxes in all this for sure. The mysteries involved will not be understood fully on this plane, in this world, in other words.

God's ways are much different than ours. We cannot fully understand Him and in a way, it might not be such a great idea to even try to understand Him. It could give us a huge headache and get us nowhere!

 

[arabianhorselover]

Oh, yes. I have spent a lot of time being angry with God, and feeling guilty about it. It started when I was a young child and prayed for help with my family situation. The help didn't seem to come, and I lost faith. I'm 57 now, and over the years I have come to see that God has been there all along, and that things would have been much worse if he hadn't been. He gave us emotions, and I don't think he expects us not to feel them.

 

[Tinyflame]

No I'm not angry at God.

I was told there are no coincidences.

 

[saraemerald]

Oh, yes. I have spent a lot of time being angry with God, and feeling guilty about it. It s...

Sorry that happened to you. I can relate. Hugs

 

[user27357]

If there is a god I would bet he or she thinks we are pretty insignificant, and so easily misguided by people that have a stake in getting people to believe in some version of him or her. I am betting there isn't one or that if there is they are just entertained by us.

I went to a magic show and paid up front to see a guy pull a rabbit out of a hat. I don't think he really pulled the rabbit out of the hat, but it sure looked like it. I guess it was entertaining.

I went to a church to see if god could make me live forever. I wasn't convinced that he could, even though they read their book at me in a very coercive fashion and had lots of people there that seemed to think he could. Sure glad I wasn't asked to pay until it was over. I guess it was entertaining.

I haven't really been angry at God I guess, but sometimes some of those people that believe in him or her can sure get on my nerves.

In reality? F'n religious people are responsible for my initial traumas. I was a smart kid with very stupid parents. they were bigger and stronger and if there is a hell it waits for them, not me,

 

[EveHarrington]

I was at one point. Then I realized I was angry at his followers who did things in his name, and not God himself.