No I don't. I am not believer. If anything I like buddhism, but buddhism is more like philosophy and life-style. But funny thing is that some therapeutic methods are similar to meditation, also some breathing techniques. And I also like philosophy in general.
What helps me ? Yes, walking or hiking in nature. It is my sort of meditation. Exercise itself is just great. Then philosophy, then reading scientific articles about our problem, that means ptsd, or c-ptsd in my case, acoa symptoms, etc. With the aim of better self-knowledge. And sometimes is much more simple because sometimes I say to myself what really matters ? I've been through some really horrific situations in life. Literally life threatening situations. I say what is anything in life so terrible compare to this ? What really matters ? And besides, I don't need too much stress in my life anymore. I have already experienced it a lot and I don't need some heart attack or something caused by some panic attack or what. No, no I have to by more kind to myself if anyone else is not. And I'm looking for peace in general. That means peaceful places, situations, people, even jobs. I try to indulge myself. I was comforting my mother as a child and eveything was about alcohol addiction of my father and domestic violence. I feel like I was comforting everybody around me, except me ! So now is MY TURN. Besides everybody wants something from you. Isn't it true ? So I say no, no, no, you have to also think about my. No more people pleaser. Otherwise....middle finger.
So that's it. And religion, and faith... Well, honestly I think faith in God is a side effect of our imperfect brain. Let me explain. We are capable of abstract thinking, we have imagination. And that's great. We use them for our everyday life, for many practical situations, for science, etc, etc, you name it. It is a tool. But we have also emotions. We need answers, we crave for meaning, we are prone to causal thinking. Therefore if we can not explain some phenomenon, we don't understand something in our life, our environment, or we need comfort in life and we don't find any, we still have a strong need for answer. So what many people do ? If there is nothing available, they use their imagination, abstract thinking to basicaly ease their need. And what comes out of it....well, many things. It depends on person.
So basically we use our tool for many situations, also in an illogical manner to ease our need because that is many times even more important than logic, rationality. No wonder, we are quite emotional and instinctive organism. We are prone to belive in many things, not just God. Think about political views, or election, or what we think about other people. How many times we belive what we want to believe ? And besides, our brain and its abilities, it is just tool and once we have it, we use it, we can't avoid it, from childhood till death. But how we use this tool it depends from person to person (predsipositions, education, nurture, culture, etc, etc).
