I can't believe in an all-powerful yet merciful god could possibly exist. I pulled out a lot of quotes before posting this. Too many to choose from!
I'm going to be / sound anti-religion. Same as I don't take offense to others' around me practicing their faith, I do not want others to take offense that I am coming from a place that seems radically different from many of the people who have posted to this thread.
I would LOVE to believe in something like a god, because I think that would leave me with a sense of purpose.. and to be brutally honest, lacking a sense of purpose is not good for a person who has been suicidal at multiple times in her life. Very "What's the point?" [please don't try to answer that question; please take that as I intend it - as a rhetorical question that i struggle with].
I don't believe in sin. Even if I did believe in sin, I don't want anyone to suffer on my behalf. Let ME suffer for my own sins, if you think they're sins. That's a major problem I have with many Christian religions. Catholicism is, to my mind, amongst the worst of that group. because my first real exposure to a Catholic Church was at my grandfathers funeral when I was 9 years old. The crucifix scared me and I CRIED. Not for my grandpop... well, I was crushed by that. But the frigging crucifix scared me to bits and I still cringe at thorns and dripping and carrying things on a person's back... I don't think I would have found that helpful as a kid. We did have a Children's Bible - for the stories more than anything else - and again, I sobbed at many of the stories and so the Children's Bible, that my older brother loved so much, was put aside for my sake.
You could say, that left me ignorant of some important things - and you'd be correct.
Just as the religious have been asked to hold back, I hope people reading this will hold back and accept what I believe (even if you don't understand it).
I believe in beauty. I believe in finding beauty in the world. Whether it be nature, or man-made, resplendent things exist in the world.
@Emily L, It was very brave of you to bring up the topic and follow through with it. I admire you for that. I have avoided these questions, for the most part - just because it's easier, and I have no problem with others thinking good thoughts for me. And that's what I do for others, I wish for good things and send all my good, positive thoughts for people. In my own beliefs, that translates roughly to what people mean when they say prayer. I still doubt its efficacy but I can't imagine how it makes the world any worse than it already is. But letting people know you care. That's it. I believe in Beauty, and I believe in letting people know that you care.
And that's what I have to work with. I personally believe that organized religion has been responsible for many of the worst atrocities this world has ever seen. - This is NOT what goes through my head when people offer prayers - this is my get-through-life feeling. I can't believe in a being that would allow so much suffering. If there's a God, either he/she/it is all-powerful and evil, or well-meaning but somewhat incompetent or powerless. Again this is from the thoughts that run incessantly through my mind; I came to these conclusions many years ago - I do continue to examine them, when I am well enough.
It's perfectly natural to question your faith in god, gods, belief systems, laws of nature, science, evolution, if reality exists, etc.
Don't beat yourself up for questioning anything, it's the healthier approach.