Poll Has Your Abuse Left You With Any Permanent Physical Damage?

[Deleted member 1860]

No; but the darn PTSD medications may have damaged me! Only time will tell...

 

[Nebulustrix]

My permanent physical damage is very minimal -

I have two chipped teeth, a slightly crooked nose (from it being broken and not seeing a doctor after), and a couple scars.

The chipped teeth bother me the most - a dentist was able to put "caps" on them, but they aren't super effective. Several things will still cause pain under the caps. My teeth were very sensitive before the chips, and now I'm so uncomfortable with seeing a dentist that I won't let them do my regular cleanings. I use a gingivitis mouthwash every day and very thoroughly brush. Haven't had any cavities, but there are a number of stains that could be fixed if I could convince myself to see a dentist for a cleaning.

 

[Padfoot]

Yes. I have extensive scarring to both legs and minimal scarring to the tummy, chest, back of the left hand and the right forearm. The legs bother me the most.

 

[C689]

My skull was fractured in a car accident. That was caused by being drugged and finding myself in a bad situation. I get mad when it aches with pressure changes.

 

[Shulamit]

I just have some scars from a split lip, as well as one on my chin. Nothing major, and I'm not concerned with the appearance since they've mostly faded.

 

[Lina007]

Internal scars and injuries.

 

[ResaLock]

I have a few permanent injuries from abuse. From a r*p*/kidnapping. I have a scar under my chin. Sometimes I do forget about it. I do not know how exactly it got there. My chin was cut at the time. I was passed out at the time. When I am triggered though by the incident. I actually dig at it. It really bothers me. I actually have a sore on it right now becasue of it. It was brought up at therapy. Though I was not bothered by it that much(somewhat maybe) at the time. I wound up digging at it again. It happened when I was 14. I on;y did this to the scar on my chin about 3-4 times.

I have pain in my right arm that does trigger me from an assault. (not a domestic violence assault) It completely left me immobile to doing a lot of things I liked doing before. I have a chipped skull from being knocked unconscious by the same incident.

 

[Adorraj]

I know it's been a few years since you post this question. I'm new to the forum. I suffer from pstd from child sexual abuse. I repressed those memories until my mother drunkenly confessed to me she was sexual abused as a child one night and that's when the memory of my uncle (her brother) showing me porn came flooding back. Since then the memory and sensations came back over time.( It's a long story of psychiatric care and medication and repressed memories coming back.) To the question I think my physical damage is vaginitis. I've had two sexual partners in my 28 years of life (both ended badly. Both of them did not love me). I felt nothing vaginally during intercourse. There's only pain or numbness (no sexually pleasure). My therapist and one of my sexual partners (aware of my history of sexual abuse) told me that my numbness was not physically but mental. My mind put up a mental block between my body so I will never fell pleasure. The first time I felt pleasure/had an orgasm I was being sexual abuse. My mind decided to protect me by numbing any sensation whenever I had sex. The only time I feel any kind of pleasure is during masturbation. The pleasure i do feel I barley feel it.

As a child I always wanted to find my "prince" and get married. (I loved the little mermaid.) But sometimes I don't know if I ever want to have another man inside me again.

 

[Adorraj]

I meant to type vaginism not vaginitis. Vaginismus is vaginal tightness causing discomfort, burning, pain, penetration problems, or complete inability to have intercourse.

 

[Curls28]

I know it's been a few years since you post this question. I'm new to the forum. I suffer from pstd from...

Hi Adorraj,
I have always had the same issue. I was sexually abused by both my mom and my dad from the time I was about 2. I am almost 31 y/o and I am currently in a good marriage with a loving husband and I still have never felt "pleasure" but only numbness and pain during intercourse. My husband and I have tried many things to help me with this and it has yet to resolve. Is there a therapy or do things like EMDR therapy help with this "mental cage" we are in? I want to enjoy sex with my husband, it doesn't just hurt me, it hurts him too, I know it can't be easy to feel like he can't "please" me this way.
Thank you for your honesty and for sharing your story. It helps us all feel less alone in our struggles.