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Just wondering if anyone has experienced anything similar?
I have no problem talking about most of the things that have happened to me, and most people seemed okay with hearing them, and it never seemed unusual.... I had a couple of counceling sessions recently. In the first few sessions I talked about some of the physical violence and I was fine. I always knew that not everyone experienced something like that but when I heard someone repeat what I said and questioned what I called it, it sounded very different than what I thought it would sound like. It sounded like it was actually violence or abuse. It's not that I didn't know before, but I didn't think of it as such, if that makes sense.
I thought to myself, "What? That's not what I said..." even though I knew it was. The next thought was, "Shit, that sounds a lot worse than I thought".
Nothing has changed for me, and I have no idea why it's so hard for me to deal with, why my emotional reaction is so strong, and why it's so hard to call it abuse?
How can I deal with it myself?
I have no problem talking about most of the things that have happened to me, and most people seemed okay with hearing them, and it never seemed unusual.... I had a couple of counceling sessions recently. In the first few sessions I talked about some of the physical violence and I was fine. I always knew that not everyone experienced something like that but when I heard someone repeat what I said and questioned what I called it, it sounded very different than what I thought it would sound like. It sounded like it was actually violence or abuse. It's not that I didn't know before, but I didn't think of it as such, if that makes sense.
I thought to myself, "What? That's not what I said..." even though I knew it was. The next thought was, "Shit, that sounds a lot worse than I thought".
Nothing has changed for me, and I have no idea why it's so hard for me to deal with, why my emotional reaction is so strong, and why it's so hard to call it abuse?
How can I deal with it myself?