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[Kailani]

yeah-glad you are okay; you did so many great things about contacting your support systems, analyzing your situation and acting on it and then checking back in- you are stronger than you think i think! take care of you !!!

 

[Flossy]

I cant remember the details but a group of Australian athletes and one particular ones, got themselves in big trouble using Ambien to get to sleep. One of them was found wandering the corridors of their hotel completely naked and unaware.

That was so sensible to get yourself to ER @Chava . Maybe put up a reminder on the wall that you can call LIfeline or the equivalent. It is frustrating I know because it is not a fix, but it can be the bandaid you need to get you through.

Have you watched the Russell Brand documentaries on Alcoholism and drug use? They are very insightful and great to watch.

I have never had a go at Chat Room here, but if I am on and see you in chat, I would be glad to. Honestly it has never occurred to me to get on there when I feel like shit. DUH!

 

[Dragonfly-Dawn]

Thinking of you @Chava.
You can do this. Just know we are all rootin' for you.

 

[scout86]

Anyone know if that's a thing that happens with Ambien?

Yes, it is. I'm sure you'd find a lot of info if you Googled it. An ex BF of mine used it and had some weird and alarming experiences with it. (I used it a few times too, but quit. It interferes with the hyper-vigilance I know and love and I suspect I have a nearly infinite capacity to abuse stuff.)

@Chava I'm SO glad you went to the ER and you'll more or less ok. I can relate to being scared. I have faith in you though. You'll get through this! You showed the ability to make good choices in bad circumstances when you went to the ER. Keep on keeping on.

 

[Ellabella44]

Hope things are better for you this morning.

 

[Deleted member 28740]

@gizmo I use mostly homeopathic for me and my dog. She does not know a placebo is, so when something works for her, I know it works. For her it is fireworks trauma. I use the insomnia relief formula. Also the calming, Environmental Relief, Rhus Tox (highly recommend). I get them from Swanson Vitamins online. They help her and me. Not for depression, have not found one for that, but eases anxiety, panic, and helps with sleep, works for the calming better on her, but she does not have a human mind that constantly can beat yourself up, over and over.

 

[Deleted member 28740]

where I live dial 211, it is a 24/7 crisis line that can direct to many services (assault, medical, talk, legal,…..)

 

[Anarchy]

Hugs Chava,
Glad you are Ok and took control back into your own hands.
:hug:
Those demons are going to be facing a drought!

 

[Chava]

Thanks again myptsd friends! Warms my shriveled little heart! :inlove::inlove::inlove: I did sleep okay but needed lots of comfort props. My therapist called a few times yesterday to check on me. Nobody from AA called back (okay I only tried two people). I need their support but need to help myself first because you can't always rely on one source of help in crisis. I know everyone has their own lives. Thanks for the extra #s @joeylittle

Today was okay and I'm a little less freaked out. If the sleep thing doesn't work well without my ambien, I'll call my doctor, but I really have to avoid the sedative-hypnotics at this point. @Neverthesame , I've taken ambien for a few years and been okay, but honestly loving it a little too much. And once I f*cked up and drank, it just became a trigger for drinking. One ambien is sort of like a couple drinks. And alcoholics don't stop at that. It's really that same feeling for me. Most people just go to sleep. I never ran down Main St. naked, but I found myself doing weird projects and hanging out in that hypnotic happy place too long. It's not a good med for alcoholics. I had just been sober so long that I thought I was okay. It clashed with a new med and I went f*cking nuts in about five seconds. Like all the useful parts of my brain shut down. :meh::nailbiting::confused:

@Flossy I don't use chat much but that was very helpful. Thanks again to those who were there nudging me to get help. I actually didn't feel myself in a crisis that I remember, because I was drunk and I assume saying stuff like, "It's okay, I've drank Listerine a lot of times..." But I listened and called for an ambulance. They put me on heart monitors and fluids for 3-4 hours. Embarrassing, but that's how it goes sometimes.

Thanks again. :)
Still scared but feel a little less unreal and maybe a tiny bit less insane today.

 

[City Slicker]

@Chava, I am really glad you reached for the help that was there both here and in the ER. Yes, in our minds it's embarrassing but there's no shame or embarrassment in being able to grab what it takes to keep yourself alive. Hope each day feels a bit better than the last.

 

[iwannadeletethis]

Can't say much more, which makes this a shitty shitty post, I KNOW. What about anger and memories, etc. I'...

That's aweful to deal with. I wish I had sound advice. when I haven't been in my right mind, I hold as mentally still as possible until the storms over.

 

[oasis2003]

Take care Chava with many many :hug::hug: