How To Cope With Nights?

[Deleted member 28403]

I, as many others do have a problem with nights, and it gets really bad. As time passes at night I get anxious about being abandoned and have tons of fears. Sometimes I get to suicidak thoughts and a few nights ago I just sat in the bathroom with a razor. For 30 minutes. I need a way of dealing with that. I am afraid to fall asleep due to nightmares and I just get stuck in a loop, unable to close my eyes because my imagination acts on it's own and fills any empty space with bad stuff. I need a way of dealing with anxiety.

 

[ms spock]

The nights can be really hard Otakujome. Are there any helplines that you can ring for some back up at night?

Do you have a list of self soothing things to do to distract yourself from the suicidal thoughts?

Have you told anyone that you have suicidal thoughts?

 

[ms spock]

I need a way of dealing with anxiety.

This is are a really good goal to have otakujome!

 

[Deleted member 28403]

There aren't many help lines, and I don't know how one would help me. And it's mostly busy (I saw their quarters at the social care center, there is only a few people, and at night ussually less so barely any way of getting contact. I got one single friend from America with whom I can sometimes chat due to timezones, but I get overwhelmed so much that I can't do anything.

 

[ms spock]

I can understand being so overwhelmed that you can't do anything.

 

[ms spock]

Can you do some of your martial arts to calm yourself down?

 

[ms spock]

Have you looked up self soothing and self nurturing? Perhaps that could help?

What does your therapist say/suggest?

 

[Deleted member 28403]

My theraphist offered me pills and told me to have a nightmare diary.

 

[Justmehere]

Sometimes medications, even those use for anxiety and sleep, can actually cause nightmares to increase. It might be a good idea to keep track of meds and severity of nightmares.

You are very bright at your young age, I bet that you could probably learn a lot outside of therapy about grounding skills and mindfulness that are taught in therapy.

Nights are hard for me too. I do lots of stuff to help. One is having a very consistent routine before sleep. I usually read boring, very boring, non-fiction books about software programming or stuff like that before bed. Not because I care about programming, but it gives my brain nothing interesting to process in my sleep and makes the nightmares less frequent.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

@Justmehere
Well, pretty hard to find something that won't interest me. I read all kinds of stuff.

I try mindfulness, but it doesn't work on me as I get to various logic errors. Grounding skills? Well, my back is woundful due to mine being pain.

 

[Recovery4Me]

If you are posting of suicide ideation which is entertaining the idea of suicide, I hear you but I am uncomfortable discussing it at this time with someone whom has his whole life in front of him with limitless opportunities. Others at the forum are much better than I.

So why am I on your thread? Because I would like you to have this information, as you are important to us and need to be informed.

Plavi Telefon
Ilica 36
Zagreb
Contact by: - Phone

Hotline: (01) 4833-888
Website: plavi-telefon.hr

http://www.suicide.org/hotlines/international/croatia-suicide-hotlines.html

Take what you need and leave the rest.;)

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I know about that one, but I am afraid of calling it. I am afraid of just being called out a fraud and hung up on. I don't know what to do at nights, at day I can reasonably think, but at night I lose most of logic in thoughts.