How To Handle Panic Without Having To Run From This?

[Justmehere]

I'm done. The outcome was very good. Better than anyone expected. It was the outcome I wanted.

I was present all day. Now that it's over, I am completely dissociated. Nothing feels real. I feel very floaty. I'm grounding but also resisting grounding. I'm not sure what I'm holding back or running from - the only thing I feel is some really strong hesitation to wing present and not dissociated.

Even the words on the screen don't seem real.

I'll be ok - I have a ton of skills to handle this kind of state. It's a weird and intense response to positive news.

 

[scout86]

It's great to hear that the Good Guys win at least once in awhile!!!! :D

 

[Deleted member 541]

@Justmehere You did it...... awesome!!!!!!!!!! You deserve to fall apart a little bit. You've been through a lot, and deserve to crash and burn. Then go soak in a warm bubble bath, lite a few candles, put on some soothing music, and just relax.....

Your blue sweater was lucky!!!!!!

 

[Abstract]

That is truly truly truly fabulous!!! Well done and thank you as things like this are the best thing ever for my being. Its like salve on the wounds. You should be very proud.

Is it possible you are doing a little processing? I think these things can be deeply healing and intense. I hope ou ground yourself enough and can feel your power and effectiveness against harm in life.

 

[Justmehere]

Thank you everyone for the support! Two victim rights attorneys contacted me to celebrate? I don't know they were just super duper excited about the outcome. It was - little bit of righting a wrong.

I am feeling a bit more now -less dissociated. Still so foggy but yeah, I think I'm processing something.

My brain is going back and forth between "how is this real? Nothing is real" and "oh CRAP this is real!" and "what just happened?" and "nothing is ok" and "this is so good!"

I feel a bit crazy.

I remember daring to hope and think of what it could feel like to have this outcome - and I didn't think this is how I would feel.

 

[Abstract]

I always find that moments that change my perception of the world, life, people are extremely intense and what I usually call alice falling down the rabbit hole moments. Especially with anything that relates to trauma. The world spins and it does it for a while before the reality settles. Not saying thats what you are experiencing but your words reminded me of that!!

I am so very happy for you. And happy that something possitive has been acheived for the benefit of people.

Ps. you are real. and the world is too. ;-)

 

[Deleted member 28740]

I remember daring to hope and think of what it could feel like to have this outcome

Giving me courage. Thank you for sharing this. HOPE is for me a visual walking over the chasm on a rickety swaying foot bridge. You did it. Still not understanding how you crossed that bridge, I understand. For all of us facing that you have given me hope.

Bravo!

 

[Justmehere]

It took 11 years to have this outcome. 11 years since the trauma.

 

[Deleted member 28740]

11 cupcakes with big candles. We are sitting with you and glad for the glow. Keep them in mind (image) and blow them out one at a time as this huge monumental passage is clearing.

 

[GrayOwl]

Well done.
From little seeds, strong trees grow.
You've watered the seeds, maybe take a break.
I hope you have time for "you" this weekend.
Some simple pleasures to ease the mind and soul.
Thank you. :joyful: This is really great, I'm very happy for you.
And all the positives that can come from this!! Awesome job.

 

[rosey]

Well done @Justmehere you should be so proud of yourself. Allow yourself the time to recuperate now.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@Justmehere Wow, 11 yrs of wading through the shit and the muck only to emerge out of it victorious!!!! Be proud of yourself for being focused, courageous, and steadfast enough to see this through till the end, Seriously, 11 yrs, and your vision was focused on seeing this through. Your determination is awesome..... Congratulations!!!!!!!