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[piglet]

That denial thing is a real bugger! Hey YA - you're surviving ptsd, you are certainly strong enough to do the surgery! I know that's easy for me to say, but everything you have shown about yourself here says that you can hack the pace and be better the other side of it too! Take care!

 

[anthony]

Yer, what Piglet said.... great words Piglet.

 

[piglet]

Ta!
Taking a risk tonight. A colleague is having a party - complete with surf simulator and adult sized bouncy castle. The weather is hot and sunny. My gut instinct is that I really want to go and have some fun, BUT just going is a trigger. I want to have a drink like everyone else too, BUT I know if I do, I will have to stay, as I don't dare drive even after only one drink cos of the meds.

I just want to be normal for one night, BUT just the thought of going out makes me feel anxious. I am taking the dog with me, which helps.

I have just read what I have typed (corrected typos - has to be done) and noticed all the "buts". PTSD is a real pain in the but!

I'm going to go and attempt to enjoy myself. I just hope I don't regret it. Catch you all tomorrow.

 

[YoungAndAngry]

I'm so glad your going Piglet!
You need to get out and try to have fun
(isn't it funny how we basically have to force ourselfs to have fun?)

I hear you about "being normal for one night"
I've tried on the occasion... sometimes with great results... others... well... stuff happens.

Been up for 2 hours or so...
gonna heat up the soup I managed to make yesterday ;)
Lots on my mind, so I like to keep busy

 

[Nam]

I'm doing okay today. It's weird because things are happening...I should have known, feeling crappy all week, feeling depressed, sliding down the hill....and just when I started to feel great again.... I really don't want to deal with it now because I feel good...so that's where I'll stay. I'll wait to see if there is more, but right now, I can handle what I've got. Sorry for being so vague. I had friends over today and I made a great, fantastic dinner of chicken garlic pasta and a fruit pizza for dessert. It was way yummy...so it made me feel better knowing that my husband would starve without me! I hope all of you weekend plans are good.

You are jumping on the infatable castle, aren't you Piglet? lol!

 

[piglet]

I survived my night out and did have some fun in there. I hate being older - I am knackered after bouncing around so much, but it was so funny. Alcohol went straight to my head, so the second time I went on the castle, I hit a wall and bounced straight to the floor and lay there bobbing up and down while everyone else bounced around me. It was fun just to be silly.

Got triggered a bit near the end of the night - drunk person invading my personal space. I took myself off with the dog for a bit. Overall, it was a good decision to go, but I will definitely have to watch the alcohol with the meds! I generally don't drink much anyway, and I don't know how strong the punch I drank was - had a hell of a punch though!

 

[anthony]

Nam, I think you know its time to deal with things, because firstly you went looking for help to find this place, secondly, your body is telling you its time to get rid off it all... because it has allowed you years of good times, and feeling great, but all falsely masked with suppressed trauma. I think your body wants the true you back again, without all the trauma hanging around... as your mind and body will only factually suppress trauma for so long, then it will leak through, and if still ignored, near take you down in a screaming heap. I think you need to listen to what your mind and body are telling you Nam, and act upon it before it gets worse.

Piglet... bloody good stuff. Congrats on a great night out. That jumping castle sounds like a piss cutter of a time... don't mind getting funky in those things myself. Know what you saying about the alcohol though... as one light beer goes straight to my head nowadays. I have one beer, feel the impact, and then wonder how much damage and punishment I have given my body over the years with alcohol.... ouch! You deserve to enjoy yourself... and did you notice, that in a controlled environment, a little mental preparation and taking the dog, helped you through having a great night. Well done!

 

[Nam]

Thanks for your reply anthony, I don't like it, but I need to hear it. Masking is a good word....

Anyway, today is geat! My sister is here after delays, got lost, etc. Anyway, she and her little girl are asleep in my basement as I type. It's good to have her here. Besides her little one is soooooo cute.

Had some bad nightmares last night, but I'm doing okay. At least the crying is gone, for now.

Piglet, that is so awesome! I'm glad you were silly (you've got to let go of some control to be that way, which I think is great to do once in a while), and I think you handled the trigger quite well. Good for you!! Mmmmm, about the alcohol, I used to get drunk on 1/4 glass of champagne..cheap date!

 

[Nam]

Today went great. I'm getting good at this sewing thing. I sewed two shirts today (for myself!) and had someone ask me where I bought it from! HA! That's when you know you've arrived!:smile:

 

[YoungAndAngry]

Nam, you've arrived! lol
If I were to sew myself a shirt... well... lets just say it wouldn't be pretty...
Good job! I bet you can make some pretty cool things :)

I think it's day #4 or so for having this darn flu...
It sucks, but not nearly as painful as my daily "normal" pain,
besides... I don't think the flu will last too much longer (*/fingerscrossed*)

 

[anthony]

Ouch YA... you get better soon hey. I sympathise as having it recently myself, and considering we are across the world from one another... spooky!

Good for you Nam... bloody well done. That has certainly given you a bit of a boost, which is what we all need at times.

Me... well, I am changing some of my websites onto my new server... and lets just say, frustrating is the least of words I could use at this point. I am leaving this place until as the last one to move, considering upsetting those with PTSD is not a great thing to do... so I will work out all bugs, concerns and issues with others forums first, then I will move this one, being my baby, and very near and dear to my heart.

 

[Nam]

Anthony, my hub is a network engineer and can sympathize with you. He says good luck!