How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[ms spock]

My day is challenging. Work up with panic feelings. Didn't have panic attacks. I have been feeling a lot of anxiety. I am feeling weepy.

 

[ms spock]

I have been all over the place. I rang a helpline I cried my heart out. Bit calmer now.

 

[Let It Be]

@Ms Spock ((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))

Went to my OT appointment and his wife saw me today. I really like her. She is easy to talk with.

She did tell me that I wasn't as guarded as I have been while she was working on my shoulder. She thought I was probably trying to protect myself as I had been in pain. I'm glad that she told me this as I had a feeling that it has been hard for me to relax during therapy.

 

[WildMermaid]

My day had a teeny breakthrough. I've not been sleeping more than an hour or a two at a time and have been having migraines and ocular migraines. I woke up shaky and feeling like I just could not DO the day but determined to try. I made a reservation for a water park/hotel trip for our son's 9th birthday and was so focused on making sure I was right on rates and such that I booked the wrong date. All of the self loathing came back and the negative mental loop started. Instead of staying in that space I got on the instant messenger on the site explained what I had done wrong, and the nicest person changed it for me. The moment made me realize I can change my internal hate tapes and though it was a tiny thing it was powerful.

How has your today been? *hugs* to any who need some

 

[Let It Be]

It is still awkward interacting with this OT. I try to tell myself that it will have its benefits in me being able to trust him when he touches me and talks to me and knowing that I will be safe.

Got alot of things done today since the forecast for Saturday is that it is supposed to snow so everyone was out today before the weather changes.

 

[Tanishq]

I didn't get angry today. No, I didn't. Yay! Mark of the day.

 

[ms spock]

I had some intense emotions today, I lived through them. I am calmer now.

 

[jaccat]

The day started well, with a fairly good day at work. Only found myself questioning the behaviours of people towards me a couple of times.
Then back home my alcoholic brother knocked on the door asking if I'd found my Dad's watch, which I'd promised him at Christmas. I hadn't but invited him in while I had another look. Worried that my cat would take a panic at his dog, which he put in the porch- they got into a fight once that left my cat traumatised for days. But I couldn't turn him down. Didn't find the watch but he went away happy after I came across dad's harmonica- he took that instead. Sad to see him the way he is, sad to think of dad, gone six months now. Also awkward moment when my brother told me to get out and about and find a boyfriend! Pretty sure my other brother has been talking to him. Now all of them seem to think I'm a total recuse.
Finished the day off with an appointment at the Chiropracters. I have to keep seeing her because I can't seem to learn to relax, much as I try. Felt okay going in, now I'm aching all over. Also tried to book a second appointment with a massage therapist and was told I'd have to ring and make the appointment in person. Worrying about that now. Don't like phones- social phobia kicking in...

 

[ms spock]

So far my day has been sleepy.

 

[Let It Be]

Went to my OT appointment and my shoulder is doing better. I'm so ready for this to be over with but at least I'm doing exercises which I wouldn't do otherwise.

Went to visit my neighbor across the street to find out how her Christmas and to wish her a Happy New Year.

 

[ms spock]

Emotional then okay. I am calmer now.

 

[ms spock]

Managing okay today. Doing better.