Had promised myself I'd go see a movie today, but wasn't sure, in my current frame of mind, I'd enjoy it. Instead I decided to go for a long walk to try and clear my head.
Amazingly it helped. I had a realisation that, while I have trouble trying to connect to my child-self, I can imagine anything when I'm writing. So I pictured the thing that's been bothering me as if I was creating a scene for a story, and just for a moment I connected. Then I stopped on my walk and wrote it down. All of a sudden I felt a wash of relief, as if I had actually managed to get it out of my head.
However, I didn't realised quite how hard I'd pushed myself walking. I didn't so much walk home as limp. I made sure I stopped for a hot chocolate in a cafe on the way, as a treat to myself.
I think I might rent a movie this evening instead.