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[GR-ass]

wanders through.

Considering making an attempt at the mental imagery thing *grins*

why do I think I will not like the results.

Oh, Luke is still a sweety and I am very very content at the moment.

Feels like I'm high, minus the drugs. Did forget to take my pills yesterday *but* only had a little anxiety (odd since i met his parents). Was easily managed though. Didn't freak too majorly *g* and managed to wrap them around my little finger.

Did however get the proverbial mum talk, only not from his mum, rather from mmy aunt *eye roll*

fun.
Lets just say I don't plan on breaking his heart. Not if I can help it.

 

[Deleted member 93]

It pretty much sucked though I did curl my hair! And it stayed!! Hubs said he did not know what to make of it as he had never seen it that way. I have done it but it lasts zero time. But out here a curl holds. Wow. And funny thing is I did not have steam coming off like usual when I try it.

And my little one! She made me so proud. She just turned 3 in December but she tried to write her first word! She sounded it out and wrote COD. She was trying to write cold but forgot the L. Hell, she is only just turning 3 and did it all on her own with zero help out of the blue! Who am I to nit pick???? Oh I hope she is like her brothers being so smart! And her letters were perfect! Though she does get made when she shows me an I or H. Depending on the angle she brings it to me I cannot tell which it is, and I am usually wrong. I am so tickled she is writing her alphabet and even trying to do words.

 

[batgirl]

I have naturally curly hair veiled, and a LOT of it, so i'll send you some curly hair vibes, maybe it will help lol.

 

[goingonhope]

That is especially good Veiled, you daugter just turned 3 and wrote very well COD, amazing...some children are so smart...sounds like she might already be so smart like her brother.

.............Hella'va exhausting, pained day today....much illness, some rest, a great deal of willingness despite everything, and once again temporarily some hope....that is of course until I next hear from Mommy dearest'....oh' when I think about how very ill and almost violent reaaction my mind, being and body has to her and the knowledge that she is alive and i'll being soon hearing from her again, it scares the life out of me right now. OMG, In 2000, and since over the yrs., I had welcomed my mother back into our lives, I was involved in hers, and I remember knowing it was at a great stress and loss to my health and considered perhaps even a disservice to kids at times, but allowed it anyhow, and hope to allow it again, only not if it's a form of punishment or self-destructive by nature, only under other circumstances.

 

[GR-ass]

Curls up. Slept like crap last night, rather *didn't* sleep well. *grumbles*
Life is good, except for the sleepiness :D

Oh, and one step closer to getting my bond back

 

[YoungAndAngry]

Sleep... Oh I remember pre-PTSD sleep, how refreshing it was... sigh

Doc confirmed surgery will be at 1PM,
which I am just thrilled with, at least there's no early morning rush.
4 more day... sh*t

 

[Deleted member 93]

I am betting this is really bitter sweet for you. I know you are scared but have some hope. I am really wishing you the best and I hope you can ground yourself and be in a good emotional place as much as possible in the next following days. Hugs to you. I know it must be scary but do not forget you have so many here for you! We are behind you 100%!

 

[YoungAndAngry]

Thank you Veiled

Yes, bittersweet is a good description...
this surgery will not cosmetically fix my face,
the just need to re-break my septum and straighten it out,
possible cartilidge grafts... all stuff for breathing and such.

When I want my scar and disfigured nose fixed... that will be a whole different surgery :(

My main hope for the outcome of the surgery is the ability to breath through my nose again.... oh how I miss that simple pleasure...
and my biggest hope is that somehow the surgery will reduce some of the pain I am experiencing... but of course there are no promises for that.

Anyways, I am going to go make some stir-fry, distract my mind.
And try to force myself to eat.
Even though I knew I should eat, my nervous thoughts have 'caused me to lose my appetite completly.
I went 4 days before forcing some rice and stir-fry the other day.
So I'm gonna keep my mind busy and make some food :)

 

[GR-ass]

hugs tight

food good hon *nods*

hugs tight.

 

[anthony]

YA, I am behind you in this, and sure are all those here. Goodluck with the surgery, and looking forward to hearing about the positive results. All fingers and toes crossed here for you.

 

[batgirl]

OH surgery... wow. I should check this thread more often I guess. Anyways good luck YA, I hope it goes well for you!

 

[jods]

Y&A Hope it goes well for you. Sending you hugs & positive vibes!