Portabella
Gold Member
This is not going to be a good day. Got woke up at Midnight by an inconsiderate cell phone alarm set to remind my husband he has a order he has to post at 8 a.m. I called for my son to get me meds as I sometimes can get back to sleep with a sleep aid if I don't allow myself to become fully coherent. But....Not happening. I was pissed all the way around, Pissed at the cell phone, Pissed at the alarm, Pissed at my Husband for setting the freaking alarm for that hour and then having the phone in the room. I got out of bed, as my youngest has a bed in our room and I did not want him to wake and compound the damage done. So, I go to use the bathroom in the hallway and one of my dogs took a piss in there on the floor, so I scrubbed that, started the laundry, mad as hell and yelling at my husband and my son the whole time. Then I went out into the darkness in front of my house to smoke, I don't smoke in my house and bitched that the weathermen were wrong and there was no wind or snow as they were advising we were going to have a blizzard tonight. Then sitting out there, heard a roar and then something screaming, I assume a coyote, wolf, bear, or worse yet a cougar got a rabbit. The screaming lasted about 10 seconds. My son came out to check on me and made me promise to go to bed if I got sleepy. Oh....they really are so clueless. I actually cried, it does not happen often when I am upset and made my husband to get up and change the laundry as in if he can ruin my little precious sleep, I can mess his life up too. I now know that I was wrong, but I am still mad and it is now 3:30 a.m. and it is not flipping worth it even if I could go back to sleep. I wish daylight would come so that I could go out and smoke and not have to worry about being eaten by some wild hungry creature just copping a meal......Yes, that would be me. Okay, I hope you don't mind that I posted here and vented. I am still new here, but just have a gut feeling I am going to be around for a while as it is a little comforting to know that there are other "me's" out there that may understand a bit of what I go through. I really have got to get out of this mood, its a very dark mood and it won't do any good for anyone. This sucks.