How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[Deleted member 93]

Falling apart... I wanted to go watch Shrek 3 with my lil' one but I spent this AM confused all to hell unable to focus and had to actually look up a recpie for pancakes (I should be able and normally do with my eyes closed). I have been OK from naps and waking for about 20 minutes before I am getting bombarded with panic attacks. Supposed to go to a cook out too after the movies but hubs wants me to rest, he is stopping by between the movie and the cook out to check on me.

Days like this are rare now but man they are a bitch when it happens.

 

[zoe]

A little better to day because someone took the time to help me get some stuff out even though they were having a rough time.
Thanks

 

[wildfirewildone]

:frown: I have been having some suicidal thoughts this past week and a half...seems to be increasing as I am so stressed about my financial situation that is keeping me from what I enjoy most....being with horses...I also feel a constant low grade agitation just about continuously...every day just seems to be more pained with the consistant sense of despair....I feel like I'm holding on by my fingernails....When I hear someone talking about retirement...I sink even lower....There won't be any retirement for me...just this constant state of poverty that looks not to have any end....Somehow I have to keep hanging on till Friday...then payday....:dont-know if things are not better....I will have to call my psychodoc and see what he thinks I should do....Going to the hospital isn't going to help with getting me out of poverty....I would just come home to the same irritating mess....and talking to someone in an inpatient situation isn't going to change my predicament ..:frown:wildfirewildone :wall:

 

[Deleted member 93]

My computer is going in the shop!!! But great as I have been without for months and bumming hubs. I was against it being shipped out to be fixed but found someone to do it local. I may actually have a computer at my disposal again!

 

[wildfirewildone]

:crybaby: I apologize for being such a sad sack around here....:frown: I had a letter returned to me marked in big red letters "Refused" and of course..."Return to sender".....I sent a note to my cousin [by marriage] explaining to her how it was my sicko sister who plagued them with some horrible calls this past last weekend in July.....the ones she thought that I made...she wouldn't listen to my explanation when I called her then to explain what happened and she told me never to call her again....I thought I would be able to reason with her via a letter....It NEVER got opened:crybaby: My ex-hub's family was the family that I felt truly a part of as my own is soooooscrewed up and dysfuncational....Now I've got nothing....This is just way too overwhelming!!!!! I keep bawling.....wish I had the gas to see my psychodoc tomorrow.....but that's not going to happen!!! I did move my June 9th appointment to Monday evening the 4th though....I am trying not to go off the deep end but this loss is so grievous that I just want to lay on the floor and let the heartbreak kill me if that were possible....I had spent my whole frickin' day back in the town I used to live in waiting for my AC in my van to be fixed and that didn't happen....They wanted me to leave it overnight but I had no other way home....so now I have to get up by 6AM again so they can have another go at it....I told them it better be done by 5 pm tomorrow as I have an appointment at 6 pm.....Then I drove home all hot hot hot I could barely stand it :boxem: !!! Then the returned letter in my mail.....:dontknow: if I can bear any more suffering.....

 

[zoe]

Struggleing

Probably a little down. But it seems like each day is a struggle to figure out why each day is so much the same - a struggle to make it to the next.

 

[Jet]

Today was a really great day. Not that I did much of anything. But yesterday I found a job. Not a great job or the one that I wanted but it will pay the rent and keep the animals in food until I find something I like better.

Got a message from my kid today which is still a thrill. He is such a sweetheart...he completely overlooks the fact that I get all sappy and turn into a complete cheeseball whenever I message him.

Also I got an email from my best friend. We have not talked in a long time but since she was the one who helped me do the original search for Jon I felt like I had to write and let her know. It was good to hear from her...made my week even better.

Jet

 

[YoungAndAngry]

Went to the dinner theatre tonight.
My parents bought us tickets to 3 shows and I almost forgot about the second show.
Thankfully I remembered just in enough time to book the table, as it was the last week it was showing.
Chicken was amazing, but my poor attention span plus anxiety issues mean that I was itching to get out of there ASAP after food.

Anyways, it was nice to go "out" with my boyfriend.
It's been a long while, and was very enjoyable.

 

[Deleted member 93]

But you enjoyed the food! That is great, my doc used to get on to me as if I went out I just consumed my meal without tasting it, it was all about leaving and being done. I think that is huge! Good going!

My day I saw the therapist and got a lot of food for thought. Will share when I digest it.

 

[YoungAndAngry]

I did enjoy the food, Veiled!
But probally not for the same reasons most people would.
'cause I can't smell, and my sense of taste is really messed up.
So I seek textures and temperatures I like.

The soup was so-so, with mushy vegetables (not a great texture) so after managing to eat 1/2 of it, I passed it to my boyfriend to finish.
The salad was crunchy, fresh, and cold! Yum! Couldn't get enough of it.
But the chicken was just so tender, it slide off the bone. Amazing!

I'm trying to enjoy things.

Take care all,
Y&A

 

[Deleted member 93]

Maybe you would enjoy a "California Club" Many textures and fresh. A flaky tender croissant, plenty of crispy cold alfalfa sprouts, a little crunchy bacon, tender turkey deli thin, with smooth cold avocados. And of course anthony's fav, mayo hee hee (he hates it)

That is my favorite out to eat food and I would consume it and just realize it was gone, but home made I really enjoyed the mix. Now need to go post my food for thought.

 

[zoe]

I was really P.O. about everything yesterday.
FIL not doing well and think he might have pneumonia - but neither he or H thought he should go to ER.
Lawyer(impatient, lecturing type) at in-laws to get "affairs" in order. Giving his own personal opinions of how things should be done.
My h in an incredible amt of pain from sitting(back problems) and listening to all this crap.

The only good thing, I left for a little bit and got cool fabric to make a couple bibs for the youngest grandchildren.

Just hoping today is better.