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My day was so emotional. I went to see my psychriartrist and she thinks that my sudden loss of energy is related to being a child where I tried and tried and nothing I did fixed things. She wants me to notice what happens at the point of losing my energy.
She says that I don't have to do anything that I have to notice and think. I feel like I have no intrinsic worth unless I am doing something for someone. It is lifelong irrational thinking.
I cried today about my childhood. My psychriatrist said she was glad that I am getting angry about the way I was treated now. That I am not sending the angry inwards.
I felt a lot of emotion in therapy today. I had little weeps.
Then I went to see a friend at the National Art School. I saw the Ben Quilty "After Afghanistan" and it was interesting. Then my friend and I went to another art gallery. She wanted me to stay for the night but I had to come back to complete my presentation for tomorrow. I had a nice time with her.
I am wiped out by all the emotion. I was so glad to get back on the train and go to sleep. When I got home I went and boogie boarded at the beach. The beaches are open now.
Finally the sun has come and made it possible to mow the lawns again. I mow lawns for work. We have a backlog to do I just need the sun to shine a bit more this week. It has been a very wet year so far. Was heavy going the wet grass but at least I got some done today. I am now relaxing and squeaky clean. ;)
I will gather the strength to haul up the things from the basement an load them in my car to take to the donation center. I will try hard to not be bothered by the lack of likes for something I wrote on my blog and just be content with the number of visitors. I did get one like. One is better then none.
Although it's another gray day here, it's been nicer than I expected thanks to some informal chatting with students between classes. They almost always pull me through the muck.
I accomplished all of my goals today and also ran errands. Looking forwards to having the girls here while my daughter goes and talks to a lawyer. I will feel so much better when she is represented for round two a month from now.
I hope the DA really sticks it to him. I hope they destroy his guns and he does not get them back.