Relationship Husband was too calm when he left...

[Erin Lee]

To me it sounds like emotional numbness. (I could be wrong, just speaking out of past experience)...

I have seen the stress cup thing. It does make sense. I have done so much research on ptsd, tbi, etc.

I do find myself making excuses for him... and blaming the PTSD on a lot of stuff. But I do know that he is still in there and he is still able to make legitimate decisions. I just have a hard time believing that my actual husband wants to leave me. It makes more sense that the ptsd wants to leave.

I've tried to mentally prepare myself for the beginning of treatment because I have heard it will be worse before it gets better.

I just love him so much and want to do nothing. but help him. I wish he could recognize that when he's feeling so low instead of thinking I'm the enemy. And the selfish part of me wishes he could at least learn to fake his love for me when he's not feeling it - because I'm human and I, like him, want to feel loved.

I'm sorry that you experience ptsd and those side effects, but knowing that you've been able to manage them and learn coping mechanisms makes me more hopeful for my husband.

 

[WTF Happened]

Indeed, Erin. I often read @EveHarrington's posts and wish that my ex had a handle on her symptoms in the way that she does.